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Reality ain't exactly my forte Neither is anything else for that matter. Sunday, August 12, 2007
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 sunday it is, soon it will be over, my only break, i just can't wait for this to be over, i am de-moralized, that's what my brother says. i need strength, to carry on this neverending journey. i want to be happy. but this whole thing just keeps giving me stress. i am so scared. just scared. woke up at 8 this morning, supposed to see my aunt, but visiting hours only started at 12. as sun hadn't arrived yet and it was still early, we decided to see the dog farms at Lorong Halus, but the stupid 'GPS' thingy was leading my brother all the way to jurong, by that time, it was already 11. so we headed back to changi to fetch sun instead. so we had a wonderfool journey in the car. mei's out 'studying' with her guy friends. i don't believe she's studying at all. i'm just bored luh, no one to disturb in this boring afternoon. skipped lunch, thank god there was ayam brand in the cupboard. quite pathetic, it tasted bad, so i had cheese instead. well, that made my stomach full though. havent seen samm for like....two days. i miss him. i've been busy with my studies, he's been busy with his life. why can't we just be how we used to be in the past. life's like that. we just can't be how we used to be. everything's changed. i just want us to be how we were; loving and all. now, he only eats, sleep and work. nothing else. i don't get the attention i used to get in the past. i just want a hug from him after a long day. i don't want to make life tough for him, but it's just that i don't want to be neglected again. |