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  • life's like that.
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    NATALIE

    Reality ain't exactly my forte
    Neither is anything else for that matter.
    Friday, August 10, 2007
    i need you baby. •
    Although it's only 4 modules,
    but my life can't get any easier.
    just saw my attachment schedule;
    and i have to work night shift on most of the days.
    i guess baby's gotta change his work schedule.
    i believe everyone has their own talent;
    but i don't seem to have one.
    that's fucking shit.
    i feel outcast-ed.
    it's like everyone can study,
    and it goes in their head.
    but mine just fucking don't.
    i know different people have their different ways of studying.
    but, i really am afraid;
    i do not wanna retake my modules.
    i feel so stupid.
    i can't even pass my practical test.
    that's really stupid.
    somehow, i think my friends find me annoying.
    i think I'm an irritant to them.
    life's tough for me,
    I'm already trying to cope here.
    4 modules shouldn't be too hard,
    maybe it's fate;
    if i fail this module,
    and i won't have to be a nurse then.
    i hate studying bacteria and crap.
    I'd rather study on fashion designs and all.
    that's more interesting to me;
    that's the one for me.
    everyone are like me now,
    not liking their courses,
    yet they can't do anything about it.
    i really want to give up.
    nursing just isn't me.
    what should i do?
    i see a rainbow at the end.
    i know all of this will be over soon,
    for there's you.
    you'll be waiting by the rainbow,
    smiling at me,
    saying "i'm proud of you baby"


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