sapphire meant to be so much more

2008-06-15T15:02:00.000+08:00

Moved :D

http://april27thqueen.livejournal.com

link me (:

i'm NOT missing you

2008-06-10T21:48:00.004+08:00

I thought of you today againn :D

At that very moment ,

i saw your name ,

I smiled ,

that's telepathy i'd sayy

;thanks for the memories

i want to have your babies

2008-06-09T20:38:00.004+08:00

ZOMG

This is the first time of my entire life
to be able to look after 18 newborn babies .
& i tell you , that aint no happiness dude ,
yes , they may look as adorable as ever
& their skin as soft as ever .
but once they start crying , they can make you go wild .
This is true enough . It's hectic inside the nursery , really .
But seeing them all cuddled up in your arms just make you want to love them even more .
Awww . Okay , i fed those cute little infants .
I was like , so damn nervous while feeding those little ones . And now , working with them , just makes me wants to have mine . I know , i know , that's crazy .
But seriously , they are sooooo cute !
& it's like , maria & i are like fighting to feed them . :D
Sigh , when can i have my own babyyy ? & feed them ??
When is it my turn ????
ohmygod .

;i just can't get you out of my mind

stupid cupid

2008-06-08T18:15:00.005+08:00

" You look so dumb right now

Standin' outside my house

Tryin' to apologise

You're so ugly when you cry

Please , just cut it out "

You said i wasn't sad at all

Perhaps , i may look that way

Cos' I've hidden all my emotions inside

Just to prevent any emotional breakdowns

Perhaps , that's why you said how come i wasn't sad at all

Listening to better in time makes me feel better each time

Remembering those last words you told me made me forget you

It seems like you've got the happy memories

& I've got the bad ones

Quarrels

Beatings

Yelling/shouting

Hurt

Perhaps , that's all i can recall out of our 4-yr relationship

Cos' that's what has happened almost everyday

Crazy right ?

That's absurd , I'd say

Ohmygod , i am really tired from all of this

& all I'm asking for is this

You said i am heartless

I'm sorry

I just couldn't hurt you any further by hiding my feelings

I had it planned already

Whenever I'm out with you , it just didn't felt right

Like how it used to be

I'm sorry

Is all i can say to you

Perhaps ,

i like you already

love conquers all

2008-06-07T10:51:00.004+08:00

edited :

had retail therapy todayy :D

she's a happy girl

tho' she's like coughing&sneezing all the way through

she's a happy happy girl

think i don't have enough sleep that's whyy

ohwell , i guess I've slept like more than 12 hours

ever since i got back from ECP

& i think it aint enough

cos i still feel so sleepy right now

okayy , we (my brother , sister & i) headed to VIVO just now

& i got a black blouse from forever 21

two knickers from topshop

a black blouse from river island

& a white tee from NUM

* i basically paid for everything ,

except the NUM shirt which cost 70 BUCKAROOS

okayy , I'm broke right now

no more shopping till next month :/

attachment's here , bummer

You've been on my mind lately

I really don't know how to put it

Can you give me a sign ?

Because i feel the same way too

Whenever you get close to me

my heart skips a beat

& I just get all tongue-tied

I have to put up a brave front too

It's a pity that we got posted to different places

Maybe it's just fate

Where ever i go

I'll see you again somewhere in school somehow

Is that fate or just plain coincidence ?

sticky chewy chocolate

2008-06-06T21:01:00.003+08:00

Thanks Claudia for the sweet post :D
I'm fine already
Love ya babe ! <33

Thursday , 5th June 2008
An impromptu decision was made
After our common tests ,
we (Jasmine , Edwin & i) headed off to the BBQ
which wasn't exactly planned for us
we merely wanted to join in the crowd as we had no places in mind to go in fact , it was the last day of our common tests hence ,
when we got there , oh gosh were we surprised myself ...
to see many many more people who were uninvited
obviously we felt at ease ,
but somehow a little awkward but sooner ,
we warmed our hearts & began making jokes at people
It was much loved :D
Soon , Edwin & Jasmine left as they didn't intended to stay longer Hence , leaving me alone with the rest of the unknowns
Okay , we went night cycling , played UNO , Charades , blahblah ...
It was overall , a fun time ,
I'd say & boy , it was tiring ,
going cycling in the night and 5am in the dawn oh goodness ,
we had nothing to do , really so we decided to go cycling in the morning & regretted
Our legs especially our thighs were aching like mad
oh gawd .
Although I'm all drained out ,
but all i can say is ,
i had a super-duper great time with you guys
& THANKS A MILLION FOR LETTING US STAY ! :D

all in love is fair

2008-06-04T17:26:00.008+08:00

Perhaps , our time's up .
Move along .

Tests after each tests .
Couldn't sleep last night , insomnia i guess .
Had too much on my mind .
Thoughts about you , about him , any regrets ??
I really hope not .
All my friends are so nice to me in school .
Asking me whether am i okay , thanks peeps :D
I know you guys are worried , but I'm fine , really .
Life still goes on without/with him .
I appreciate it .
Perhaps , i would be better in time to heal .
It's tough i know .
Jasmine suggested me to go for a haircut .
Yeah , that may work for that pal of yours , but definitely not me .
In fact , i might feel even worse , seeing my hair on the floor .
Weird , it feels weird to be single , really .
I kinda have mixed emotions right now .
& i doubt you'll probably understand how i feel right now .
Perhaps claudear will . :D
I used to think i couldn't live without you .
But perhaps , I've changed , i dont know .
Why is it , whenever I'm close you ,
my heart pumps an extra 998579859845874358 beats ??
I just aint used to this feeling .
I'm thinking of switching to wordpress or livejournal , any suggestions ??

;goodbye

i think i like you

2008-06-03T12:10:00.004+08:00

ZOMG

i have a really tight schedule

my common tests are this week

attachment starts next week

i'm so looking forward to the holidays

i miss claudia

;i dreamt of you again

clue-less

2008-05-31T18:17:00.011+08:00

~~edited:~~ ~~i broke up with him~~

I don't even know why

but

I know i shouldn't be doing this

But every time i see you , I would undeniably take a second glance

And it just makes my heart want to pop out

I don't know why , perhaps my heart rate increases when i see you

Just looking at you from afar makes me happy

I know this sounds weird

Although i don't get to even talk to you , I seriously do not mind at all

It's like , sensual seduction

I don't know what I'm thinking

Back to the books , girl

see you again

2008-05-30T17:20:00.004+08:00

I got my sights set on you and I'm ready to aim
I have a heart that will never be tamed
I knew you were something special
When you spoke my name
Now I can't wait to see you again

I've got a way of knowing when something is right
I feel like I must have known you in another life
Cause I felt this deep connection when you looked in my eyes
Now I can't wait to see you again

[Chorus:]

The last time I freaked out
I just kept looking down
I st-st-stuttered when you asked me what I'm thinking about
Felt like I couldn't breath
You asked what's wrong with me
My best friend Lesley said "Oh she's just being Miley"
The next time we hang out
I will redeem myself
My heart can't rest till then
I can't wait to see you again

[Chorus]

I got this crazy feeling, deep inside
When you called and asked to see me tomorrow night
I'm not a mind reader but I'm reading the signs
That you can't wait to see me again
I GOT MY SIGHTS SET ON YOU AND I'M READY TO AIM

please don't interfere in my life anymore

2008-05-27T21:10:00.002+08:00

I really hate this life right now

I mean , why must you do this to us ?

I really don't understand

I know you hate him , but after all , he's still my boyfriend

How can you do this to me , or even us ?

I really wish that i have the guts to go up to you and demand my life

I do not want you interfering in my life anymore

I can be with whoever i want , and you shall not even care

Is that fine with you ?

If only ...

But for now ,

i can only hide in your shadow

I'm sorry

I know , you'd like me to be strong and fight for my rights

But , i just want to show some respect to my brother

I'm really sorry babyy

I know i'm useless

I just wish my mom was here

& everything would be fine

katy perry

2008-05-26T19:25:00.003+08:00

I kissed a girl to try it,
i hope my boyfriend don't mind it

Now that my individual assignment's finished
I've come to realize that my common tests are in a couple of weeks time
& each day , I've been planning to go out
I deserve a smack in the ass right now
Oh come on , i bet you didn't even know this
So i can assume you're a much slower ass than me
Gossip girl's my only inspiration right now
Seeing them with all the rich stuff and Jimmy Choo shoes
I just envy them so much & wish that i can be a normal person in heels
I know , even my sister says so , that i look like a retard in heels
Thanks huh , for lowering my self-esteem
Although I'd adore them so much ,
i can only buy them and keep it in my closet & let them mould .
June's attachment is at NUH againnn
I'm seriously sick of that low-class place , really
It's damn budget , i must say
When people ask , I'd normally give them a good mind
& say 'ohh , i have it all planned , perhaps I'll get a degree or go overseas to further my studies'
But frankly , i do not know what to do in my life
If you think i should be a nurse , maybe I'll consider
But seriously , that kinda job's aint for me , but let me think , do i have a choice ? It's freakily planned out all for me . He did it . Not me .
Perhaps He has everyone's life recorded down on a book . Like sims ?
Uh-huh , perhaps , and He decides that i should go be a nurse
& perhaps let Sam be a policeman and let Xin min be a doctor ,
and Claudia can be an international hot model

Yeah , dream on girl .
Life aint that easy .

i fucking hate you

2008-05-25T21:05:00.005+08:00

*edited*

All i wanted was to be the Number 1 in your heart .
Is that so difficult to accomplish ??
Now , i know how much i meant to you .

I managed to finish up my individual assignment in time
So i can party while everyone doing it in the very last minute
Oh well , so i headed off to town with my sis to do some shoppin&gossipin .
It's been a long time since we went out together . :D
So , we met Sam & Eugene not after long .
We separated as he wanted to have a hair cut .
But after much considerations done , he decided to do it tomorrow .
So we had dinner at Buddy's corner .
Good food !
I love the steak there . GOODNESS !
Only $13.90
Cheap food + goooood delicious foood ! YUM YUM !
Oh yeah , bought a pair of vintage earrings from my fave shop
& it cost me 10 bucks . whatever . i like it . :D

my sweetiepie hunny bunny

2008-05-24T10:22:00.003+08:00

Supposed to go clubbin with Claudia , Zack & Sam , but Zack's sick , so it was cancelled .
Some other time maybe .
Oh well , so instead , Sam & i went to get a couple of alcohol to drink , & we challenged ourselves on Guitar Hero .
Whoever loses , must drink down all .
Okay , he's not bad at it , and neither am i .
So , he lost , and he drank all .
Plus , the drink wasn't nice at all .
Oh yeah , did i mention that my bro's gone for good ?
Hahahahah , if only , so he's stayin over these days to be my companion .
Not only me okay , mei also brought her bf to our house last night .
Okay , back to my 1500 word assignment . Bummer .

BEST-friends do not last forever

2008-05-19T22:19:00.006+08:00

Why must you do this ?? It really hurts me to see this . I know , it doesn't concern you ,yet you keep doing this for the both of us , Cos it seems like nobody is ever doing something . I really don't know what to do . I really do not want to see this friendship die like that . But , obviously , you know , how they are reacting is so exaggerating . And i just don't know what to do , with what they are doing right now . It totally seems like it's my fault . But , it really takes two hands to clap . So please , do you want to end this ? I'm sorry for acting that way . But , i'd really like to tell you that i have lots of problems right now . Please . I'd can't take this no more . It hurts me when i see what you wrote . Just like that , and you call me a bitch . Just because you don't know me , you say i've changed and call me a bitch ?? Is this right ? This is seriously ridiculous . For i think i've done nothing wrong but trying to hide my problems away . Like xin min said , everyone is selfish , they can never know or understand what i'm going through , for they only can think that they are much more worst than me . And i think she said was right . No matter what i went through or what , you guys can never understand what i went through , and yet saying that i've changed and yes , i'm a bitch . Thanks mann . Seriously . I appreciate it .

she's my cherry pie

2008-05-18T23:20:00.004+08:00

Claudia darling came over todayy :D
We had dinner
& we did some online shopping from forever 21
After much gossipping and all , she left for Zack's
Thanks for helping me sell those clothes&accessories dear
I seriously never touch them anymore , really
Oh and the tips of the restaurant , perhaps I'll bring Sam there

And I'm looking forward to partying againn
Oh gawd , the feeling of forgetting everything is perfect
Although it's just for awhile , i seriously do not mind at all :D
Tomorrow's Vesak Day , which means there's no school !
And great , he's bloody working tomorrow .
Baby , please don't work on Friday .
I beg you with all my gum drops

LOVE VS HATE

2008-05-17T23:29:00.003+08:00

" How much you love yourself is linked to how much love you're receiving from the man you're with. "

Cycling with you guys were GREAT

And seriously , i hadn't had enough fun

I still want to cycle and have more fun with you guys

Parkway parade is boring , really

Except the Topshop & Dorothy Perkins sales :D

& come to think of it

I still have not used my 20% voucher from Topshop

But , no fret , he's gonner bringing me there before 27th May

& I'm looking forward to that very day :D

Utopia

2008-05-15T19:25:00.003+08:00

Let's get married, babyy

And leave this evil world

Filled with hatred and discrimination

To a world with love and happiness

To a place like Utopia

ironman

2008-05-14T19:18:00.002+08:00

IRON MAN
*watched this on Monday with babyy cakes
ohmygod
the show was great totally~
i'd give 4/5 stars

ohwell, school has been normal lately
more presentations&assignments coming up
& it's driving me nuts

whatever happened have already happened
but seriously, do i need to explain at all??
when all this while, i was just living my life my way?
all i can say is, i would like to be myself & perhaps,
i'm enjoying this??
have you asked yourself this??

touched by an angel

2008-05-12T22:31:00.003+08:00

Seriously, at least I know you'd always be there. What am I supposed to do without you? I'm so secured with your pillar of support that you have given me. You make me feel so loved. It's like whenever I'm with you, all of my effing troubles are gone. You always make me breathless, and I feel so protected with you. Whenever i see you, all i wanted was to run and leap into your arms. Thanks for always being there for me, baby. You always knew what was bothering me. And you knew the cause of it, you just knew it. It's like you have a camera in my brain, and you just know everything in my thoughts. You just know me like the back of my hand. I love you, babyy. For you are impossible to find.

imissyou

2008-05-10T13:16:00.001+08:00

how i wish the first thing i see when i wake up is your face.

i miss you.

happiness

2008-05-09T23:18:00.002+08:00

Eunice's a happy girl !

she ended school at 11am todayy

headed to town with jasmine&shirley

takashimaya, wisma& far east we went

& goodness was my feet hurting all the way

the mother's day celebration with his family was superb

it was much loved&i love that kind of atmosphere around me

perhaps that's the only thing my family lacked.

and gawd, i love that charles&keith handbag so much

it's still in my mind&i'm still thinking about getting it

should i get it??

shirley said no

jasmine said yes

oh dear, it costs 49.90

but somehow, i think it's worth it

it's like the average price of a handbag in singapore

i want use it to school so much

but it kinda look stiff&bulky&the workmanship aint good

but..

i like it !!

better in time

2008-05-07T23:42:00.002+08:00

It’s been the longest winter without you

I didn’t know where to turn to

See somehow I can’t forget you

After all that we’ve been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock

Who’s there no one

Thinking that I deserve it

Now I realise that

I really didn’t know

If you didn’t notice you mean everything

Quickly I’m learning to love again

I'm gonna be OK

Thought I couldn’t live without you

It’s gonna hurt when it heals too

It’ll all get better in time

And even though I really I deserve to

It’ll all get better in time

I couldn’t turn on the TV

Without something there to remind me

Was it all that easy

To just put aside your feelings

If I’m dreaming don’t wanna laugh

Hurt my feelings but that’s the path I believe in

And I know that time will heal it

If you didn’t notice boy you meant everything

Quickly I’m learning to love again

I'm gonna be OK

Since there’s no more you and me

It’s time I let you go

So I can be free

And live my life how it should be

No matter how hard it is

I’ll be fine without you

Yes I will

Better in time-Leona Lewis

;i'm in love with you again

school sucks

2008-05-06T18:03:00.003+08:00

ohmygod

school sucks

& it's driving me nuts
* had a freaking 4 hour break
so we decided to go to queensway/ikea
and and i got my red stud already !
but i think it's a little bit bigger :/
so i showed to xin min in school
& she said it's bigger in size
stupid saleswoman, she told me only got one size
then, i was telling her there were other sizes, but she didn't believe
now all i hope is that i'll be able to use it,
if not, i'll be damn sad already :/

over her dead body

2008-05-05T18:15:00.002+08:00

*
caught this show with him at cineleisure <3
one thing i liked about this show: Eva Longoria Parker
& i'm her no. 1 fan :D
whatever, i think she acted pretty well in desperate housewives
i think she's elegant & petite & pretty
ugh, i'd die to be her for just one day <3

i had a great time with you babyy
altho we had limited time together
but i still enjoyed myself with you hunns
whatever it is
don't ever doubt my love for you okay?
i'm always here for you
school's starting tomorrow again
no more holidays, what a bummer :/
anyone know where can i download DS games?
email me at: queen_natalie_@hotmail.com
thanks ;)

pressies

2008-05-04T21:58:00.005+08:00

i miss my girlfriends

especially nur amalina fatin !

the laughter we had

the love we shared

the people we knew

that time of our life

those memories that were left behind

it has never been erased from my memory

today day i got my navel pierced

with claudear&xinmin <3

the day that i never saw coming actually came

god, am i happy !

my wish had finally came true .

now, i just can't wait to show it to my babyy ! :D

i hope he'll like it

and amelia&van surprised me by

giving me my fave Britney Spears Fantasy perfume :D

i can't be much happier than this !

THANK YOU !

i love all the pressies !

i miss you sweetie

like i believed that shit

2008-05-03T12:53:00.005+08:00

oh god
fuck periods

this is just why i hate being a girl
&the fact that we have to give birth to humans
ugh

ok,
oh so, you just want to say thanks?
that's really so nice of you
i've already passed him the message,
anything else?
actually, this is just his kind of style,
being nice to bukit viewans
no special ingredient there.
so you don't have to think too much.
he didn't even remembered what exactly happened
that i had to remind him who you were and where you came from.
blah blah blah
so he's got the message
will you stop harassing my friends?
thank you very much.

crazy party

2008-05-02T12:18:00.011+08:00

My birthday party

CRAZY NURSE, ANYBODY??

IT'S TOUGH BEING A HANDICAPPED

THE QUEEN'S CAKE

LOVE HER TOTALLY <3

YOU GUYS ROCK !

GIRL POWER !

THIS IS THE DEFINITION OF HIGH ON DRUGS .

BIG BOYS DON'T CRY

ONCE AGAIN, I THANK EVERYONE WHO CAME&MADE MY DAY A MEMORABLE ONE.
LOVE YOU !

just fine

2008-05-01T11:27:00.002+08:00

Indulgence

Nintendo DS
YUP, my brother got it for my birthday
Sam said that i am very lucky girl as i could get whatever i wanted
However true that may sound,
i still think that i'm not
I could get all the material things in the world
but there's one thing that i don't have
& i'll never have...

Anyhow,
i'm going to pierce my navel with claudia&xin min
ohmygod
i'm just so esctatic about it !
Without them,
i'd don't think i'll even give it a second thought
I have an urge to watch movies right now.
I think the hottie&the nottie might be nice
Or perhaps over her dead body by eva longoria parker
Yuh, i know it's like i'm the only one free.
Apart from the rest who's schooling&working.
Ohwell, i shall call my classmates out one day :D

ecstatic

2008-04-29T21:29:00.002+08:00

ZOMG

i am free on thursday, friday, saturday, sunday&monday
as i do not need to go to school
cos my mentor had left for Australia
i know, damn happy already

Just looking forward to the holidays
Tell me bout it.

happy birthday

2008-04-28T19:12:00.002+08:00

Saturday

babyy accompanied me to VIVOCITY
(purpose was to find my b'day pressie)
but couldn't find any.
Anyhow, i managed to get a purse from Topshop. :D
It's lovely
we walked around&played arcade for awhile
& decided to meet my friends at clarke quay
we then headed to pubs to drink
& overall, i had a great time
Thank You, guys !
They even countdown to my b'day.
how sweet can they be.
i love them all

Sunday

went out for dinner with family
for my birthday dinner
it's my all-time favourite :D
Tung Lok Signature Restaurant
and and
how can i forget this
i finally got my Topshop membership card !!
Ohmygod
& they even gave me a 20% voucher as my birthday was on that day
as a birthday gift
i'm damn happy alrdy :D

breathless

2008-04-25T19:01:00.003+08:00

If our love was a fairy tale
I would charge in and rescue you
On a yacht baby we would sail
To an island where we’d say I do

And if we had babies they would look like you
It’d be so beautiful if that came true
You don’t even know how very special you are

You leave me breathless
You’re everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can’t believe that you’re mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you’re leaving me
Breathless

And if our love was a story book
We would meet on the very first page
The last chapter would be about
How I’m thankful for the life we’ve made

And if we had babies they would have your eyes
I would fall deeper watching you give life
You don’t even know how very special you are

You must have been sent from heaven to earth to change me
You’re like an angel
The thing that I feel is stronger than love believe me
You’re something special I only hope that I’ll one day deserve what you’ve given me
But all I can do is try
Every day of my life

Shayne Ward-breathless
I think this song is ever so sweet.
Sing it to me baby, and i'll marry you ;)

esctatic-ness

2008-04-24T19:17:00.003+08:00

Wednesday

I went out with my baby love :D
yes, immediately after school
Call me crazy, whatever
He wanted to find a birthday present for me
Apparently, he said "window shopping"
But, i was too tempted
Oh well, i got this new pair of sunnies from f21
& i finally got his initials on a pendant
I'm so happy
He said i was sweet
AWWW ! I could just melt away at that moment.
We then headed to catch a movie, Definitely maybe
I'd give three out of five thumbs up
Cos, i don't quite like the ending
I kinda like the cliche ending
Ugh, i sound like a hopeless romantic

Thursday
ZOMG
Tomorrow is Friday
& i got a presentation
And you know what i would get when
I've to face fourteen people in my class
Nervous breakdown

I'm already starting to worry
You don't understand
The teacher-in-charge is very critical
Once you talk too soft, she'll ask you to repeat the whole thing again
What the hell?!
I'm damn scared now. Getting butterflies in my tummy.
No dinner tonight, if not i would puke everything out.
I'm so looking forward to my birthday !
which falls on the 27th April
I shouldn't say it here, you people should know hor !
To love me = must know my birthday !
Oh whatever. Birthday wishes are fine with me. :D
& I'm looking forward to pitstop !
With love,
Natalie

disgust*

2008-04-22T18:42:00.003+08:00

Warning.
This is going to be uneasy&disgusting.
Mental preparation is required.

I used to think pregnancy was a miraculous thing.
Being able to give birth to a new born baby,
is the kind of happiness that God gave to us.
It's a blessing.
However, if not for today,
my thoughts wouldn't have changed. (correction: changed totally.)
Now, I'd say pregnancy is a disaster.
During this entire week of school, including last week's,
I've been seeing lots of videos on child labour.
Be it natural or cesarean. I've seen it all.
The worst thing is i could even imagine the pain
that the mothers are going through. ohmygod.
I know that sounds crazy. But let me tell you this.
During the entire video,
most of the girls were covering their eyes and screaming.
That's child labour. The kind of thing that every girl would have to go through, unless you're not straight. :D
The worse part isn't just about the labour.
It's after labour, when the baby had already come out, then comes out the placenta. It provides the baby with sufficient blood.
It looks like a cauliflower, however it's covered with blood.
How disgusting is that. A red, bloody cauliflower.
I think i shall go for meat these days.
And the Chinese even keeps the placenta,
and bring it home to cook it in soup for the mother to drink.
Is that true?? YUCK!
I shall find the bloody picture and post it here.
How's that.
After much learning and all, I've decided not to get pregnant anymore.
It sucks totally.
But a friend of mine told me this.
We, nurses can have a smooth delivery as we know the process
and we come prepared for it. Anaesthetic all ready. :D
And poor baby, he has to listen to all my disgusting complaints
about abortion, child labour, miscarriages, blah blah.
Thank you babyy. <3
I love you!

Enchanted Euphoria

2008-04-20T22:10:00.002+08:00

"Pretty girls should have pretty smiles"

I had a pretty long day.
I caught 'The most expensive cribs' on MTV.
& ohmygod, were those people fucking rich?
They had nothing to do with their monnaye,
so they just use it on redundant stuff like, 'Shark tank'?
How stupid. Why not donate to the people in Afghanistan? Or Africa?
Tsk tsk tsk. It not only irritates me, it can only make me wonder.
What would i do if i had one million in my hands?
I would pretty much use it on my loved ones& my friends.
I will prolly bring them on a Star Cruise.
As I've never been on one before. & I'm not ashamed to say that
I've been to Paris, I've been to Europe, I've been to Hong kong,
but yet not on a cruise.
What should those filthy rich do with their money?
Filthy rich people like Angelina Jolie, Brad Pitt, etc.
They feel that they need to do something charitable so that,
people would like them, blah blah.
And they go to Africa and buy/adopt the children there.
That's nice. But, do they really have a heart for them?
Or was it just plain pretence? God knows.

I had a great time with you baby.
And all i can say is "Thank you" for making me the happiest girl again.

& you stood at the door with your hands on my waist and you kissed me,
but you meant it and i knew you meant it

Do you realize?

2008-04-19T16:00:00.004+08:00

To realize
the value of a sister:
Ask someone who doesn't have one.

To realize
the value of ten years:
Ask a newly divorced couple.

To realize
the value of four years:
Ask a graduate.

To realize
the value of one year:
Ask a student who has failed a final exam.

To realize
the value of nine months:
Ask a mother who gave birth to a still born.

To realize
the value of one month:
Ask a mother who has given birth to a premature baby.

To realize
the value of one week:
Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.

To realize
the value of one hour:
Ask the lovers who are waiting to meet.

To realize
the value of one minute:
Ask a person who had missed the train, bus or plane.

To realize
the value of one second:
Ask a person who has survived an accident.

To realize
the value of one milli-second:
Ask the person who has won a silver medal in the Olympics.

Time waits for no one.
Treasure every moment you have.
You will treasure it even more when you can share it with someone special.

To realize the value of a friend:
LOSE ONE.

I miss my sweetiepie hunny bunny.

iwannabewithyou

2008-04-18T17:17:00.004+08:00

I'm very sleepy.
And i was late for school today, 8.15
Morning's dreadful.
Enough said.
I miss my goddamm girlfriends.

The weekends are finally here.
Say hello to relaxation :D
He's working late hours as usual.
What can i say,
but to wait and see.

RANDOM

2008-04-17T19:08:00.002+08:00

I'm so dreading school tomorrow !
It's like, the longest day ever.
Plus i won't have any break time.
Never mind.
Go on a diet. :D

Thanks to the stupid rain this morning,
i was late for my lecture.
And my hair& make up was all in a mess.
I freaking hate SBS buses, especially 61.
Always full. And the bus driver doesn't even bother to stop.
What attitude.
I don't care.
I'm taking cab on Weds&Thurs.
My luck just seems to be down on me these days.
For some crap reason i suppose.
I always miss my bus.
I always don't get the things that i want.
HMMPH !
I believe my luck would come back real soooon.
Oh yes, my sister lost her mobile.
And i just feel so bad for her, as i went through that sense of loss.
And now, she has no mobile.
I can't contact her.
I was thinking of getting a cheapo one for her.
But, apparently, my brother had some old phones that he kept.
So the thing is, she doesn't have a sim card.
Oh mann, should i ever lose mine.
That's the end of my life.

What makes of you, make me.

2008-04-16T19:15:00.003+08:00

School was very boring and dry today.
And it took me a long long time to digest.
Oh , what the heck.

I had the worst day ever
yesterday
And I'm not saying much here.
It's way too much.
Anyhow,
everyone's had their shitty days.
And perhaps, mine just came earlier.
Today was quite fast.
And i managed to catch love on the same bus.
It was such pleasure seeing his face.
I was ecstatic.
Oh well, just purchased my PDA todayy.
And it's like so cool.
I was thinking of how am i able
to download themes for my pda.
No biggie.
It seems like I've just wasted 500 buckaroos.

Period.

school lies

2008-04-14T15:03:00.003+08:00

School's screwed.
It started with a bad omen.
I didn't bring my ez-link card.
It wasn't in my 'panty', when i checked.
Suggested meeting earlier to get our notes,
but some were late & goodness was the queue.
So we then headed off to our lecture without notes. -.-
Thank god, the lecturer didn't start out any lessons.
If not, i wouldn't understand any shit about law, ethics & health care.
Ohwell, i only have two classes today which is good.
I kinda miss March. I hope she's doing well.
I hope to see her around in school.
I hope this time, year 2 would be much fun-ner.
As in the modules that I'm taking right now,

maternal nursing

paediatrics

law, ethics & health care

psychology & sociology 2

Sounds difficult huh?

Maternal nursing, but of course, got to do with pregnancy.

I think that is not bad as it reflects on my future too! ;)

Paediatrics means children/babies.

Come on,

i would die to work in the paediatrics section in KK hospital. :D

I love kids ! Especially chubby babies.

Law, ethics & health care.

By looking at the words, do i still have to explain?

Ohwell, i know, it sounds boring.

But somehow, law does have a link to nursing.

Like, we nurses, need the law, to be able to prescribe medicines,

without the law, we can't do it. Faham??

Lastly, psychology & sociology.

This is basically how humans behave.

Like, we learn to define a suicidal patient and a normal human being.

As in the different things that they do , etc.

Interesting?? I beg to differ. It sucks big time. :D

Alright, be a optimistic always.

For a pessimistic, I'm pretty optimistic.

I hope these modules would be much better than my previous ones. :)

Although we are finally going in depth of our particular course modules,

but i feel that it's a big leap from year 1, very different.

Although I'm getting the hang of it,

all the intense, stressful, & vigorous weeks are sure to come

the get-down-to-real-business thingy

and we could no longer lepak and have fun :(

Like today, i didn't manage to call Claudia.

I was like, totally busy. & i didn't manage to meet her for lunch.

Sorry sweets, perhaps some other day? and prolly with xin min?

Mental endurance needed

2008-04-13T12:48:00.004+08:00

Seeing all my friends fall in and out of love
Having someone to love and be loved,
even the least expected friend of mine is in love.
Compared to their monotonous life without love,
i'm fortunate to have a partner,
to be around and hang out with,
who is able to bring up the purest laughter
getting rid of boredom and lonesome
whenever you're with him.
Security, infatuations and adore

School is just a day away,
and i'm trying to relax as much as i could
before the big thing comes.
Somehow,
a part of me is looking forward to it,
part of me is not.
This is frankly, so typical.
I mean, this had been happening for the past 19 years of my life.
And it doesn't only happens to me.
It actually happens to my friends too.
I guess it's just a mental thing,
it's like the more we think about stuff,
the more likely to get insomnia.
That's part of a reason why i hate
first days of school.

let's party

2008-04-12T14:45:00.003+08:00

*april 11th

barbeque party

checklist

- fooood

- charcoal

- fire starter

- drinks

- babes

- dudes

- boooze

- marshmallows

- bbq pit

- extreme loud music

PS: IT WAS FUN-FILLED :D

newport harbor (:

2008-04-10T15:01:00.003+08:00

newport harbor

i would personally recommend this show :D

it is one of my personal favourite

it's somewhat similar to laguna beach

it kinda replaced my gossip girl

but somehow

gossip girl is still the best

& this show has only like a few episodes

and the whole thing has a happy ending

how cliche

but we still love it somehow

'boy meets girl'

'they fall in love'

'happy ending'

oh yes , see that hot girl standing at the back with this hot guy ?

i just love her hair

& perhaps i will grow my hair to that length

seriously , i think it looks so goood on her

as she's blonde

oh gawd , i just envy blondes .

i mean they look so good , & it matches their skin colour too.

it only makes me want to have blonde hair.

ohmygod , if i have blonde hair .

i would look like some aunty who wants to be young .

whatthehell

no thanks .

among all the girls there , i think she's still the hottest . :D

her name's taylor & the guy she's hugging is her boyfriend , chase .

& in the end , chase dumped her for another girl , kylie .

who is not even prettier than taylor .

* the main character is actually the couple in front .

chrissy & clay

they are like , the sweetest couple in the show .

they had crushes on each another .

& they started hanging out together .

falling in love was inevitable .

when they finally were boyfriend/girlfriend ,

things got caught up .

chrissy being 1 year older than clay .

she had graduated with the rest & had to leave for college .

(apparently , in California , they didn't have polytechnics .)

& although their college is still in the same country ,

but different states .

hence , the lovebirds have to be separated .

they thought they could maintain a long-distance relationship .

but they couldnt handle it either .

ohwell , that isnt the full story yet .

i merely did a brief introduction :D

just go to mtv , search for newport harbor .

it's worth watching !

enjoy ;)

so-positively

2008-04-09T16:11:00.002+08:00

*
yesterday was great
just being with you baby

if it means being with you everyday
i wouldn't mind at all love
i'm so looking forward to april 11th
we're gonner have a barbeque party !
just feels so good to be back where i belong
with all of my loved ones beside me

somehow
deep down inside
i know
i aint prepared for this yet
i just knew about it
*
it's wednesday alrdy
ohmygod
& that leaves to 4more days to school
oh god ,
please let me enjoy my holidays ?
altho it's like ending like so soon already
whatever
the commence of school means that i can finally meet
my poly friends whom i've never seen
for like
decades i guess ??
wow , being optimistic just feels great !
no worries no more ! :D

yours sincerely

2008-04-07T17:03:00.003+08:00

*
yesterday was much loved
planned to go to The Zoo , but didnt .
so we wanted to go to Little India ,
but in the end , we didnt ,
due to the heavy downfall .
after much discussion with sam , his mom , his sisters , Zoe & Jasmine
we decided to go down to Vivocity on a Sunday ,
which basically means ,
going through a huge stampede on weekend .

we walked around Vivocity
& i managed to get my 'heart-shaped' earrings :D
thanks hunns <3
oh yeah , we went to this shop called
'Awfully Chocolate'
& apparently they only sold chocolate ice-cream in that entire shop
how pathetic can .
so we decided to try their ice-cream ,
thinking that it must be delicious enough for them to earn so much
just to pay the rentals
& good enough
one scoop of ice-cream cost $3.80
HOLY MAMA !
it was freaking expensive can .
& we tried & almost fainted .
no , not only was the ice-cream NOT delicious ,
we wasted 4 freaking buckarooos !
ohmygod .
To all chocolate lovers out there ,
do not be fooled by the image of that shop .
it may look nice & cool & even 'high-class' ,
but seriously , it aint worth the monnehh !

after watching newport harbour ,
i have this urge of getting my driving license now ,
& hopefully ask my brother to get me a Murano ,
(i want it in silver)
it's like a seven-seater ,
so whenever my girls & i wanna go out ,
i can just fetch them in my Murano .
how cool is that ??
FAT HOPE !
firstly ,
my brother would never get me a car that's more expensive than his !
lastly ,
i really think it's kinda too young for us to drive right now .
whatever .
it's just an illusion .
*
anyway ,
my girls are like busy with their school , work , life ??
& i really miss them so much .
i mean , we used to see each other everyday in the past ,
& now , we're like seeing each other , perhaps once in two or three weeks ??

2008-04-05T19:07:00.000+08:00

come on over baby & we'll rock this party

wild

depressed-

2008-04-04T23:12:00.003+08:00

*
whatthehell

i thought he's going to italy todayy
&
guess what ?!?!?
he aint
tomorrow is the day
GOOD-NESS ME !!!
i must really
thank
my sister
for telling me
the last minute bad news .

altho
we
are
disappointed ,
but the positive mind of his
changed our attitude totally :D

i'm sorry hunns

"patience is a virtue"

i'll never forget that :D

i love you *

love-filled

2008-04-03T22:45:00.006+08:00

the outing with my girlfriends is LOVE

in fact

every single outing with them is FUN-FILLED

headed off to far east at the start *

after doing our manicure

the weather started to ruin our plans

which was to go to bencoolen

to check out the cheap watches there :D

ohwell

we decided to hang around orchard instead

we then headed to takashimaya

& off we went to swensens for dinner

after that

we headed to paragon

everytime we go out together

my toes would hurt so badly

cos of the BLISTERS !

i didnt get to see my babyy todayy

perhaps tomorrow hunns ?

yes , i will go with you to park hotel tomorrow

if looks could kill

2008-04-02T17:43:00.002+08:00

*
oh
my
god

Gossip Girl might soon be airing on Channel 5
& oh i so can't wait for the debut
aargh ! i just cant contain the excitement ! :D
i feel like screaming my lungs out right now !
somehow
i think the book's a bore
but somehow
the show is much more interesting
OOOOH !

headed to ikea with love todayy <3
& hell yeah
did i buy tonnes of stuff for my rooom :D
okay
here's a list of what i bought :
a pink accessorized mirror
a red mouse pad
a red picnic mat (for beaches)
a pink transparent curtain
3 small boxes coloured pink & white

don't get me wrong
i aint liking the colour pink againn
apparently
ikea isnt in favour of red
most of the stuff there
were
mainly
black , white , or pink
& white's kinda too plain you'know

that shall be all my dear
awaiting for gossip girl to be out...

;she's the face on the radio,

the body on the morning show,

and the colour of the magazine

love love love

2008-04-01T23:38:00.002+08:00

*
had a great day todayy
with
loves <3

he's the reason why
i'm still living in this cold , hard world :D

let's go paint the town red tomorrow !

love song

2008-03-31T18:18:00.002+08:00

*
ohmygod
my brother's leaving for italy
perhaps
this week
& he's planning for a family-day kinda outing
& gawd , we're still heading out to pulau ubin
like seriously?
he still cant find the website though
ughh
i'd rather go to america for one day
i know i know
the flight itself takes one day
perhaps langkawi
so much better than a stupid island between
sing-apore & malay-sia right
*
aiyuh
i just dont feel like going to some ulu-ulu place
& relax
id rahh-dur he bring us out for some retail therapy
that sounds fine to me ! :D

& because of all these 'family plannings'
i cant meet muh girlfriends
& my babyy love

apologies to my loves <3

per-fect

2008-03-30T23:39:00.003+08:00

*
just spent a perfect day with babyy
& his family

& i just cant contain this excitement
it's leaping out from my heart
he's finally quitted macdonalds
& he's looking for a job
prolly at fullerton againn
better working hours i hope love
oooohh !
i'm so ecstatic about it
right now , he's like unemployed
so we're like having the time of our life
& i looorvve it

& the FOC
i doubt i will be goin anymore
somehow
i just dont feel the calling no more
i know
all the inspirations just popped into the air
just like that
ohwell
i want to go ikea babyy
i love to see the wonderful things there
& start buying lame stuff for my room :D
*
*
*

life of a girl

2008-03-29T21:19:00.003+08:00

judge me

sentosa-love

2008-03-28T15:31:00.002+08:00

here are some photos grabbed from amelia's blog :D

what can i say

a day spent with my loves

just

PERFECT

the weather was scorching hot

although it drizzled for awhile

we had tonnes of fun :D

i love my girls <3

beach love

2008-03-26T16:34:00.002+08:00

OHMYGOD*

i am so glad that the pulau ubin trip
has been officially cancelled !
because
my brother couldnt find the website -.-
Somehow , i think it's a fraud
& we got cheated
BLAH BLAH BLAH~
BUT , it's like raining cats & dogs everydayy
HOW TO GO SENTOSA ?!?!?

never mind
we are the 'AUNTY' gang
*
WE SHALL BRING :
1) LOTS OF TISSUE PAPER
2) SUN-BLOCK [JUST-IN-CASE-GOT-SUN]
3) MAT
4) UMBRELLA [I KNOW AMELIA WILL BRING :D]
5) JACKET [VANESSA MIGHT BRING COS COLD] LOL

this is what we , HIGH-CLASS AUNTIES would do .

* SEE Y'ALL BABES TOMORROW ! ;)

you know you love me

It's all about us.

2008-03-25T18:58:00.002+08:00

* looking forward to 27th march :D
it's a month to my birthdayy
& i can't help but wait
i miss my girls
& sentosa is calling me
*
facebook's boring me out
friendster's fine
myspace's typical
what else do we have

i'm awaiting for the release of the ghastly pictures
from vah-neh-sah's cah-meh-rah
the ghastly pictures of claudia & i
seriously,
that special video camera
made our eyes
looked like a cat's
cool huh
wait till you see them
heh-heh-heh
*
babyy love
i'll see you in a day's time
no worries
you have my heart :D

my loves

2008-03-25T00:18:00.003+08:00

finally got the photos from missy claudear <3

thanks babe :D

when i looked at those photos

it just reminds me of the good ol times in bangkok

when is our next trip girls??

ahh-me-rrrii-cahhh ok? :D

(i seriously do not mind hor)

* most prolly going to pulau ubin on weds

but the thing is, i do not want to go luh :/

how boring can it be

& the worse thing is

i would be going to sentosa on thursday with my girls

drats

babyy,

i really like to sit the cable car with you

but ...

never mind.

i love you

the pool was fun, love :D

thank youu!

;if only i could...

unlove you

2008-03-23T22:15:00.003+08:00

23rd March 2008

It had been 4days since we parted

somehow

every one's back to their daily life again

how simple

that's true

but deep inside

i know

that our hearts are linked as one

i know you've been busy with your license

& hence we have to postpone our plans

frankly speaking

I'm disappointed

but i couldn't disagree with you

i had to be there

supporting you whenever you needed me

no matter what

i couldn't turn my back against you

although my head says no, my heart says yes

let your heart lead the way

why does it seems that

the stronger our love gets

the more obstacles we'll get?

love is tiring

but it's worth the ride ;)

i can't unlove you

sorry

2008-03-23T01:19:00.002+08:00

why do we tend to take things for granted?

eternity love

2008-03-22T01:42:00.003+08:00

" would you hold my hand until the end of time?"

"yes, i will babyy"

lo-ve

2008-03-20T22:11:00.004+08:00

What is love?

There's a reason why people describe love as being "head over heels"

You feel like you're completely turned upside down

There's the physical stuff - your cheeks getting hot ,

the flutters in your stomach

And there's the mental madness -

you feel like you're losing your mind because

all you can think about is

the way he smells ,

how good it feels when he puts his arm around you,

or the cute little dimple he gets when he smiles

When you're with him ,

there's no other place you'd rather be;

when you're not ,

you can barely wait until you see him again

Love is a total high - better than eating chocolate ,

acing a test, or scoring the winning goal

As amazing as that feeling is,

it can be seriously confusing

Sure, you know if a guy gives you major butterflies

But how do you know if you're truly, madly, and deeply in love?

when he kisses you,

the whole world just spins around

so that

all you can see is his face

she's back

2008-03-20T02:54:00.003+08:00

*
finally back from thailand~
smiles aplenty
(photos would be late, as they're with claudear&nassa&amelia)
it was a damn tiring trip
but my loot was satisfying :D
*
spent 5days there
& we spent it really goooood
first day, which is the 15th, we celebrated zhong ang's birthday :D
& the 2nd day, we headed to chatuchak
& ohmygod, the stuff there were unbelievable cheap!
but, its a pity we only spent a day there
as it is ony opened on the weekends
& on the 3rd day, we went to MBK & also celebrated claudear's birthday <3
then, the 4th day, we headed to MBK again, & i managed to dye my hair dark brown :D
hopefully, it looks natural
& lastly, on the 5th day, we had to check out at 1pm, managed to go to platinum
to do some last-minute shopping
& we then rushed to the airport.
making full use of every opportunity we had :D

our next trip girls?
how's adelaide?
i'd rather that, than taiwan, seriously.
becos i really dont know what's there in taiwan
ok, i need some peer pressure right now, perhaps?
(vanessa , do your thing :D)
*
i had a really greeeeaaat time with you'all
everything was perfect, indeed
altho there were some things that i am not mentioning right here
which just isnt quite right
whatever
* the most important thing is i'm back
baby , i'm yours now! <3

it's all about you

2008-03-13T22:38:00.005+08:00

RE:

love isnt all about spending money

its about spending the quality time together

altho we can no longer be exactly

like how we were in the past

things are still fine as the way it is honey

wait for you for 10 years?

oh come on, how long have we been together babyy?

in 10 years time, we would be alrdy married. :D

2016 remember? or perhaps earlier??

i dont need to live the 'atas' life at all

as long as you're here with me

we can go through thick&thin together right honey?

and yes, i would place my trust&love in you

i wont have doubts about you ever again

i promise

& i look forward to seeing you at 6am honey

goodnight sweets <3

;if i asked

would you say yes

fat-igue

2008-03-12T23:12:00.005+08:00

*
ohmygod
this
kind of feeling
of
fatigue
is really
hard
to explain

seriously
the
only
motivation
that keeps me moving on
is the
thought
about
spending time
with him right before his birthday&
shopping sprees
with
my girlfriends&
5N3
in thailand

apologies to my baby boyy <3
i love you more than you love me!

PS: you know what i want :D

hurt

2008-03-11T20:14:00.004+08:00

i thought we were perfect
that we could go through it all
unlike what they said

i thought we were that 'perfect couple'
that many people envy
of our strong&everlasting love
but

i'm sad to say, that it's not that easy
having a relationship for so long
with someone whom you know like the back of your hand
but when time flies
it's actually all gone
people change
why of all people, him?
everytime i think about it
my heart would just
bleed
like
how
you
pushed me onto the ground

it hurts just as bad

who will i

2008-03-09T20:13:00.003+08:00

you were the one who i could tell my deepest fears
and you were the one who always wiped away my tears
when it hurt me and you were my prince who was sent from above
like a fool whom i never saw falling in love
so now i've lost everything
cos now you say you're gone forever more
so who will i...
who will i run to
and who will i turn to
now that you left me behind
who will dry my tears when i cry
now that you're not here in my life
you were the one i took for granted all those years
how i could be so blind not to see what's before my eyes
i'll get you back here with me if it takes all the rest of my life
cos i would do anything

who will i turn to;

now that you left me behind

when it falls apart

2008-03-07T22:13:00.003+08:00

*
im having the day from hell
it was all going so well (before you came)
and you told me you needed space
with a kiss on the side of my face (not again)
and not to mention (the tear's a shame)
but i should have kicked your (ass instead)
i need intervention
attention to temptation to scream

finally , the weekends are here . :D
*SCREAMS*
all i need is my beauty sleep. <3
*just a week more to end all the excitement.
ohmygod , just thinking about it makes my heart beat faster.
ever since my attachment started,
i have not been seeing much of my girlfriends lately. & i miss them so.
claudear's mdis performance is tomorrow. :D
& xin min and i will be there. so will jiayi&the rest.
all these work are draining my cells out. & i feel lethargic.
i feel restless. i feel all drained out.
all i need right now...is him...or perhaps a vacation with him beside me.
perhaps, we shall go to bali. :D how's that babyy?? <3
i'd like to go there with you love.

it's amazing how you

can speak right through my heart

all for you, my love

2008-03-06T20:17:00.002+08:00

6th March 2008

9more days to Thailand
*i know that ive been there a couple of times alrdy.
ok, like i dont know, 7times?
i dont want to brag right now.
somehow, i should be getting sick of Thailand.
but, going there with my everbest friends from middle school.
i dont mind it at all. :D
awwww, im such a goooooood friend.
so must love me more! buy me a longchamp handbag. :D
ok, i just saw this ah ma whom had this beautiful red bag.
& my assistant nurse who was with me
told me that it's from longchamp and she bought a smaller one
at about, most probably 138 bucks.
so the bigger bag would cost like, 200-300 bucks??
holy mama, i told xin min, i would spend more than 100 on that bag
but under 200 bucks. thats all. it aint worth it.
imagine if i bought it at 200 bucks,
i wont even use it when i go out.
ok, perhaps i'd bring it to a 'clean' place so i wont dirty it.
thats super-ultra-lame. whatever.
perhaps i would go for the fake one? nahhh.
its either im getting the real or none. :D no more negotiations!
*
ok, on the 5th March 2008
it was our ever-super-sweet anniversary. <3
he fetched me right up from work.
& there he stood waiting for me. while i ran towards him. & hugged him
ever so tightly. :D
we then went to my house, while i get changed&dolled up.
we were planning to go to Sentosa to sit the cable car.
but sadly, the weather ruined our plans.
so we then headed to cineleisure for a movie. :D
& after much negotiations done, we've decided to watch the leap years.
the show was not bad, i'll give 3 out of 5 hankies. :D
as the director's a singaporean, and i'm proud to say it.
ohh, did i mention, that my sweetie got me a ring. awwww, so sweet.
as i accidentally lost my first ring he gave me during middle school. :/
aiyuh, i know im careless luh.
ok, i shall end it all here. love ya loads.

XOXO

QUEEN NAT

you know you love me

2008-03-03T21:59:00.004+08:00

Girl's Language

When i dont call you
[ Its because im waiting for you to call me ]

When i walk away from you mad
[ Follow me ]

When i stare at your mouth
[ Kiss me ]

When i push you or hit you
[ Grab me and dont let go ]

When i start cursing at you
[ Kiss me and tell me you love me ]

When im quiet
[ Ask me whats wrong/Or mess with me.]

When i ignore you
[ Give me your attention ]

When i pull away
[ Pull me back ]

When you see me at my worst
[ Tell me im beautiful ]

When you see me start crying
[ Hold me and tell me everything will be alright ]

When you see me walking
[ Sneak up and hug my waist from behind]

When im scared
[ Protect me ]

When i lay my head on your shoulder
[ Tilt my head up and kiss me ]

When i tease you
[ Tease me back and make me laugh ]

When i dont answer for a long time
[ reassure me that everything is okay ]

When i look at you with doubt
[ Back yourself up ]

When i say that i like you
[ I really do more than you could understand ]

When i grab at your hands
[ Hold mine and play with my fingers ]

When i bump into you
[ bump into me back and make me laugh ]

When i tell you a secret
[ keep it safe and untold ]

When i look at you in your eyes
[ dont look away until i do ]

When i miss you
[ im hurting inside ]

When you break my heart
[the pain never really goes away ]

When i say its over
[ i still want you to be mine ]

11 days to thailand :D

i just cant wait no more

i hope our anniversary goes well

my love <3

retail therapy

2008-03-02T20:50:00.003+08:00

*had retail therapy againn :D
*WOOTS*

i've bought a couple of stuff...
- ALDO bag
- River Island pants
& that makes me a happy happy girl <3
god knows, i'm starting to like matured-rated stuff
(if you see the ALDO bag that i bought, you'll know why)
it's kinda like the tai tai style you'know
okayy, i seriously do not know what's wrong with me
*
hmmmm, i know its a bit early to say it now.
but im seriously awaiting for 14th March to arrive asap
its 12 days, and im counting down to it :D
firstly, i'd end my ever-dreadful-three-weekend-attachment at NUH
& secondly, i'd get to fly to Bangkok with my friends
i aint looking forward to the shopping there
cos its mostly fraud or imitations
im just looking forward to the time spent there with my lovelys <3
(who knows, i'll end up with my luggage bag all filled up againn)

i hope my babyy wont blame me for not being able to spend his day
with him the night before big day
but i'll fly back immediately just to blow his candles on his cake
please dont be mad my dear <3
ps: i love you

love you till the end

2008-03-02T00:27:00.003+08:00

im lost for words dont tell me
'Cos all i can say -
I love you till the end

i love you till the end
*
i started crying like a baby when i heard
this song being played in
the first few parts of ps: i love you

im a freaking loser for this
i kept crying & crying non-stop
& he couldnt stop offering his sleeves to me
so that i could wipe my tears, he also couldnt
stop telling me to lower my sounds when i cry

but
that
show
was
g-r-e-a-t

*
somehow
i
still
think
that
the
thailand
version
was
much
more
a-ma-zing
*
i'd really like to watch it again
and shed some more tears
ohmygod, i aint emo okay

So i went to buy that book
it was lovely :D
thanks babyy
*

i had such a wonder-ful time with you

everything's perfect <3

i love the neo-prints

i love the blouse

i love the CD

i love the movie

i love the food

i love the book

i love the places

i love the arguments

i love you

thanks for everything :D

the sweet 1st;

i'm wearing my heart on my sleeve

2008-02-29T20:56:00.003+08:00

*
finally,
the weekends are here!
'a shot at love with tila tequila' was nice.
* tila's hot, but i don't think she's pretty.
she's half vietnamese half american i guess.
i mean, so what if you're mixed.
that can be a fake identification, missy.
i can just make up one right now
by saying that i'm a mixed too.
my mother's a chinese and my father's a malay.
uh-huh.
how's that going baby?

& what's worse, she's a bisexual. ohmygod.
i simply cannot imagine.
her making out with a guy, & later a girl. *PUKES*
whatever, missy, au natural is the best.
just be yourself, & when youre comfortable with that guy.
he just, may be the one in your dreams. :D
tila tequila - http://www.tilashotspot.com/
*
i think she's psychotic enought to hold a show
about choosing between lesbians and guys.
how queer can she be?
she alrdy identified herself as a bisexual.
& the worst among all, the guys accept her for who she was.
how disgusting is that??
i simply cannot
i
m
a
g
i
n
e
*
for i'm totally disgusted.

;eat your heart out

i'm taken

perserverance

2008-02-28T19:01:00.003+08:00

* what else can i say?
life in a hospital is complicating
everything's in a mess. (esp. morning shift)
friendly ones. stubborn ones. sweet&nice ones. weird ones.
i've seen it all.
*
*
*altho we're working most of the time
& we're not spending much time together since
i still love you darling
i'm so looking forward to this saturday babyy :D

you are my baby love;

i love you

2008-02-24T21:29:00.003+08:00

ohmygod
*
my dreadful three weeks of exhaustion is just tomorrow.
*faints*
& my girlfriends are all having their holidays.
can i just look at the optimistic side of life?
oh okay, oooohh. all the money that i will receive out of goodwill?

10 buckaroos per day = 150 buckaroos

tell me its worth it.

*so that i can live each day with a smile.

baby's been such a sweetie

he's fetching me from work tomorrow. :D

& perhaps we'll have dinner together.

thanks sweetie <3

i love you;

built to last

2008-02-23T22:33:00.004+08:00

* planned to watch "PS: i love you",
but didnt manage to catch it in time.
so we managed to watch this stupid&dumb movie, "juno"
as i've said before, it's a stupid&dumb movie.
seriously, i'd rather watch "the spartans".

PS: i had a really great time too baby.

aku minta maaf sayang

(it's built to last)

disgust*

2008-02-22T21:48:00.004+08:00

apologies to my girlfriend for not being to meet her today.
knowing that she's bored at home.
*

call me judgemental , stereotypical.
tainted by society's misjudgement.
whatever it is.

there isnt like conditions for you to follow.
its just in me.

like i think its wrong for a man to think about tits.
to look at naked girls and fantasize.
to stare at prettier sexier girls when their
girlfriends are by their side.

oh by the way.
i hate to know about guys watching porn.
like . really hate. but i learn to accept
that anyway.

(like my female friends say if i dont.
i should be hating all the guys around the world by now)
but my friends feel that its normal,
because well. guys are guys. and guys will be guys.

i think its absurd.
really.

so, you think your girlfriend just
aint the prettiest one around.
what do you guys deem pretty anyway?

nice round tits, perky ass
beautiful tresses?
tight tone body?

ah. whatever man.
its annoying.

and guys still said its natural.
bcos of the testosterone which are already in them?

yeah so predictable.
never having the ability to control anything.

im sorry
but its just not to our custom
to appreciate men the same cheap
way you appreciate us.

like when i talk about pamela anderson,
you picture her boobs talking to you
and when i talk about angelina jolie
you think about the fun u can have with
her thick luscious lips.

so..
this is reality at its best .
or superficiality at its shallowest ?

i know i know, its typical for guys to do this.
but why cant they make it a hush-hush kinda thing?
is being "porn-driven" something to be proud of ?

need i remind you, im a lady
so it doesnt,not as much as how
guys look at girls anyway.
.
.
im weird really. im weird.
just bcos i do not conform
with what the society deem, as normal.
im considered an odd one out.

of course of course.
*

girlfriends are loved

2008-02-21T23:55:00.002+08:00

* met my girlfriends todayy ! <3

if only amalina was here , every joy would be shared with her .
sighh , just thinking about the past makes one cry .
all the stupid lame jokes and things we do just to entertain ourselves .
* remember, we used to play "hangman" in class together ??
me , amalina , amelia & naresh . hahahahahah .
those fun times are once in a lifetime thing .
It will never happen again , no matter what .
*
had my exam this morning at 9am ,
met xin min , claudia , nassa & amelia around 1130am in the morning .
& we headed to wisma , far east , heeren , cineleisure , takashimaya .
ohmygoodness .
we've walked alot i tell u. hahahahah .
& claudear got her navel pierced, like finally .
and seriously, i'm so tempted.
she did it for only 48 buckaroos !
holy mama ! it's fuggin' cheap !
my friends kept tempting me , stupid vanessa .
what's more, xin min & claudia had done it already.
aiyuh , in the end , i didn't do .
maybe i'll go to queensway & get it done .
or perhaps i'll just stay at home & fantasize about getting one. hahahah.

*
finally bought my Puma watch ! :D
i just love it so much ! <3
thanks to my girlfriends , they are no 1 bargainers in Singapore . :D
the watch was $188 .
then the "pervert" uncle gave me a 10% discount .
and my friends start bargaining to $159.80 . hahahahh .
PRO-FESSIONAL BARGAINERS HOR ??!?! ahahahah .
i must thank you girls . :D

* we then had dinner at Breeks! :D
it was deee-li-cious .
after jalan-jalan abit , we then took an MRT home .
just an outing with them , makes my heart long for more . <3

i miss samm =)

sweet sacrifice

2008-02-19T19:52:00.002+08:00

*
ohmygod this is so sweet !
i almost cried when i watched this
* frankly speaking , i doubt guys nowadays would do this to a girl .
to even sacrifice his sense of vision for her . tsk tsk tsk !
prove me wrong baby !
give me your eyes now ! ha ha ha .

* this video showed how much the girl desired for love
and when she found out that he was blind because of her .
she couldnt say anything to him ,
because all the time , she was contemplating on why he left her ,
& thought he loved her .
she was ashamed because of those thoughts she had .
*
amelia , its on thursday my dear . :D
and im so glad that vanessa could make it . <3>

claudear my girl , it's okayy ,

we can always meet up on Sundayy or other days. :D

ps: i love you

2008-02-18T21:40:00.004+08:00

*
some say it was gooood, some say it suck-ed.
some cried throughout the movie,
some slept throughout the entire movie. :/
different ppl with their own thoughts & preferences.
to each of her own
i shoulda try it out & see :D
* so i've decided to watch ps: i love you with my babyy
soooonn after my exams =)
perhaps this saturday hunns ?
*
i'm
so
excited
!
*
altho the ever-dreadful attachments are round the corner
i've learnt to become optimistic :D
meeting my girlfriends on thursday is the sex !
& it just makes me look forward to the gossips & shopping loot
that's the life i'm talking about <3
*
perhaps everyone's busy
& it would be the two of us againn ..

;there he goes, so perfectly

the kind of flawless i wish i could be

Abhorrence is a state of bliss

2008-02-17T19:03:00.003+08:00

*
i used to take the weekends for granted,
but things are so different now,
weekends are the only time i am able
to take my mind off school-related stuffs.

nope, i am not stress.
not just yet (:

you see, sometimes i do wonder, if this is
what i crafted my path out to be.
to study for 3 years straight without knowing
what the outcome will be, so.
what happens if i don't get myself a space
in Uni. 2 years from now ?
take another diploma,
and waste 6 years of my life?

this is not what i see myself,
i have to do well, i need to do well.

i
want
to
do
well

:) gotta keep it going eunice
and everybody else, keep pressing onnnn.

this ride's gonna be worthwhile man !

just another one and a half year from nowwwwww ...
*

on a side note,
im seriously looking forward to the awfully
short week coming up next,
altho it may be three days
it's luxury to me. :D

weeeeeeeeepidooo
have a blessed week lovelys !
:D

sister love

2008-02-16T19:00:00.005+08:00

* met up with aunt doreen <3
it's been such a long time since
& she's always lookin as young as ever
wonder how she does it . hmmmm . botox ?
i was yawning frequently at the lunch , apologies for that . >_<
i slept at 5am , that partly explains why
& now , my eye bags are out . goodness .

*
special thanks to my lil sister for helping me with this . :D
sorry for being a nuisance okayy .
jie jie loves you . <3 <3

* he's working till 3am againn . *yawns*
& i guess i'm waiting up for him .
what's the use of sleeping when i'll be awakened up by him when he enters my room .
i'm a light sleeper .
(that's good hor , so my future husband can't cheat on me at night .)
but daytime ... whatever .

*
Thou, nature, art thy goddess; to thy law
My services are bound.
Now, gods, stand up for the bastards !

press on lovelys ! :)

withyou

2008-02-15T23:54:00.003+08:00

* the lies we tell,to keep us safe from the pain.

hey lil baby
ooohh youre a stunner
hot.lil figure
yes, youre a winner
and im so glad to be yours
youre a class of your own

With You - Chris Brown
awesome songg !! :)

the always so beautiful 5th !

happy valentine's boxing day .

2008-02-15T01:37:00.002+08:00

* THIS IS OUR VALENTINE . <3
he bought this ice-cream cake from Swensens .
& we cut it 12am yesterday . :D
happy valentine's my love .
altho we had our V'day in advence already .
i just love to spend every valentine's day with you , babyy .
it's our 5th valentine's honey , & i'll be looking forward to our 99th . :D

cherish the time that you once had ,
forget the sad times , remember the happy times . :D
& for those single ones ,
spending it with your families and friends would be great . :D
i wanted to go to my mom's grave today ,
as i remembered once ,
she said : "who says valentine's day is only for lovers ?
It's spending it with our loved ones ." :D
Mom , happy valentine's day .
i'm sorry that i didn't go and see you .
but you'll always be in my heart always .

happy valentine's day to all !

2008-02-14T01:19:00.002+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAYY TO ALL !! :D :D

* watched AH LONG PTE LTD & regretted .
had an early valentine's with him . <3>
went to PASIR RIS PET SHOP ; & GAWD !
f. cute . :D
give me a retriever and i'll marry you . <3>

Victoria Secret 2007

2008-02-11T13:36:00.000+08:00

* watched Victoria Secret 2007 . :D :D

the models were hot ! but some were just fat and flabby .
& can you believe that they are actually 14-16 yrs old , but they look like 23-25 yrs ?? ohmygod . (they have an old face) .
can you see the difference ??

Playboy VS FHM

i bet all the dirrty uncles would die to get a copy of the Playboy magazines in USA . hahahahah . (TEE-KO-PEK) !

& the worse things are , most of the models are MOTHERS already !

where in the hell , would they still be so slim ??

they must be taking those pills . ughhhhh .

okay , enough of the dirrty talk .

i just got this perfume oil from THE BODY SHOP .

it smells great !

it's white musk .

altho it is like , 15ml for 25 buckaroos .

i think it's worth it . :D :D :D

he bought it for me , as i like the smell . :D thanks hunnyy

it's valentine's day in 3dayys . & i havent got him a present yet .

aiyuh , let's go get it together babyy ! :D :D

*WILD IMAGINATION*

i've decided to slim down and be a Victoria Secret model .

* ALL you dirrty uncles , see me at The Victoria Secret 2008 ! ;)

i lost it .

2008-02-10T00:06:00.000+08:00

*met my girlfriends todayy ! :D :D :D

um , it was neither amelia nor vanessa . hahahahah .
aiyuh , at least amelia was busy visiting wadd .
vanessa hor . tsk tsk tsk !!!
it was with my beloved girlfriends (cc & xm) :D
watched cj7 (some hong kong movie)
i'd give 3 out of 5 apples , it's merely entertaining .
a silly comedy , i'd say .
but i'd like that small , tiny weeny creature ! :D :D :D
it totally reminds me of Mr.Scoobs ! :D
he's getting old these days , & he's looking as old as ever .
shall we go for a botox Scoobs ?? :D :D
i promise , you'll look like your younger days . hahhahaha .

babyy ,
i'm sorry , i lost it .
i'll buy us a new pair okayy ??
i'm sincerely apologetic .

aku minta maaf sayang

2008-02-08T20:45:00.000+08:00

met up with sam *SMILES* (for lunch) !!!

altho it was brief , but he made me feel like a QUEEN !! :D :D
and when we went back ,
there were so many peeps at his house ,
and i had to go ard giving them oranges & wishing them a happy new year . (so i can get a ang pao too !!!) yayyy !! :D
altho it wasn't much , but ... better than nothing hor !!! :D
its the thought that counts , the wishes they gave you that matters .

oooh , couldn't believe that came out of my brain . hah .
did not meet up with my girlfriends todayy .
as missy claudear is busy with her ang pao collection i guess .
oh yes , saw timothy paul at bpp . apparently , he's face is similar to the guy from blues clues ! hah !! :D & he called sam , & it took him a minute in the middle of the road to recognize him . hah !!
as i said before , 1990's people are a little senile hor !! :D :D
babyy , we'll go buy shoes kayy . don't be sad no more !
aku minta maaf for just now okayy !
jie jie sayang you okayy !! :D

i used to think that singaporeans were unfriendly , hypocrites , inconsiderate , blahblahblah .
till' i met this uncle in a cab . :D
altho he had a short-tongue , & i had difficulty in hearing him .
he made his words clear enough for me .
he said he was a new driver , hence the questions .
he even offered me a sweet ... :D (i didn't eat it . DO NOT EAT SWEETS FROM STRANGERS -that was what i learnt when i was young . :D)
at then end , it was a total of $6.80 .
i gave him a ten , and asked him to keep the change and wished him a happy new year . :D :D
boy , was he so happy , he kept grinning , & even waved back at me .
it just feeels so good to be nice ! hah . OOPSSS !!!

i needd to study for my nsl test on monday .
what a spoiler .

just for laughs

2008-02-06T12:44:00.000+08:00

IT'S PROVEN THAT YOU WILL EVENTUALLY LOOK LIKE SOMEONE WHOM YOU LOOK AT EVERYDAY .
(EG. YOUR SPOUSE .)

*
*
*
hmmm , so will i look more like sam or scooby ? hahahahahahah !

happyy chinese new yearr everyonee ! :D

this is for you my love (:

2008-02-06T00:02:00.000+08:00

i miss you being here with me ,
i miss you taking long walks with me ,
i miss playing see-saw with you ,
i miss going to CHEERS with you ,
i miss playing catching with you ,
i miss hearing your snores ,
i miss seeing you playing with scoobs ,
i miss you shaking your smelly legs ,
i miss you smoking in the living room ,
i miss watching ghost whisperer with you ,
i miss seeing you get all scared and jittery ,
i miss cooking maggie mee with you ,
i miss going out to seven eleven for supper with you ,
i miss singing stupid songs with you ,
i miss watching pirated vcds with you ,
i miss going swimming with you ,
i miss watching you sleep ,
i miss going hyper with you ,
i miss talking on the phone for hours with you without saying one word ,
i miss taking buses with you ,
i miss going school with you ,
i miss the feeling of you feeding me ,
i miss wearing an identical color with you when we're out ,
i miss going shopping with you & you carrying all of my bags ,
i miss the feeling of you carrying me ,
i miss pushing you in the NTUC trolley in the carpark ,
i miss playing ping pong with you ,
i miss you pushing me on a swing ,
i miss you kissing my forehead ,
i miss you giving me the sense of security when i needed it ,
i miss your sense of humour ,
i miss your silly jokes ,
i miss the way you used to jump when you see me in school ,
i miss the way you call me 'wifey' ,
i miss they way you treated me like a queen ,
i miss those times when you kept on giving me sweets everyday to make me fat so other guys won't want me ,
i miss those times when i recieved a rose a day ,
i miss those times when you used to make sandwiches for my breakfast ,
i miss those times when we used to go to town after school ,
i miss those times in bukit view condo ,
i miss those times in yu li yuan ,
i miss those times in blossomvale ,
i miss those times in bangkok ,
i miss you .
PS: i had a great time today with mia , altho claudia didnt come , i hope you're alright my dear ! manicure was fun , so was the searching of polaroids and perfumes . hahahahah . love ya girlfriend ! and happyy birthdayy zoe ! (:

ILOVEYOUBABYY!

2008-02-04T17:50:00.000+08:00

amelia my dear : u should change to wordpress instead , if i were u , butterlfy aint cool .
i bet it's damn malu-ating for u . so i shall help u kayy !
butter-fly is boring . butterlfy is interesting . hahahahahah . is that better ??
meeting my ladees tmr after skool , and sadly , vanessa can't make it . got somebody pay for her expenses wad , what the hell , just like somebody i know . hahahhahaha .
hmmm , i got a bruise on my right arm , damn ugly luh . perhaps , i have to wear long-sleeved to cny visiting . ohmygod .
today was a bad day , the stupid practical againn , it's making me so emotional luh .
just this little things that make up the majority .
gotta study for anatomy practical tmr , fuck , why are these things happening before cny ?
can't i spend my cny in a better and more carefree way ?
he's sleeping again , god knows why , he just loves to sleep .
i think 88% of his life is spent on sleeping . and the other 12% on me . -.-
can i go ahead and bang my head on the wall ? hah .
hmmmm , ohmygod , i haven't got any new tops for cny yet !
idontcare , i shall get it tmr !
no worries (:
i pray for the very day , that my com is fixed , so i can charge my ipod , & watch porn .
hahahahahahah .
am i that sort of person ? judge me .
or thalamus .
or hypothalamus . whatever . too much anatomy spoils your brain . see what i mean ?
i'm all alone in this lonely room now .
everyone's gone .
it's so empty .
this is the perfect atmosphere of a loving home . fuck .
see why i hate going home .
i hate facing the four walls . it's stupid . it's lonely .
ok , change of topic please ? i'm getting bored .
hmmm , i hope to meet my friends on the 2nd or 3rd day of cny . (:
happy cheena new year to all the cheenas out there !! ahem , including myself .
i'm surrounded with so many people around me , and yet i'm feeling lonely . -.-
why is it that , whenever i talk to u , we've got nothing to say ?
natalie loves you (:

it's not over

2008-02-03T21:36:00.000+08:00

i'm sorry , but i need your trust to carry on .
i've hurt you one time too many .
i knew it would be my biggest mistake to let you go .
i would never know how life would be holding you close to me .
i would swear it again for you .
you said i had one too many guy friends .
i'm sorry .
both of us need the trust to carry on in life .
whenever i see u working so hard , it makes me so sad .
i just sit down and think , why is life so hard for my my love ?
i'm sure that somehow , one day , things would get better . eventually .
it's been five years , and it doesn't seem long enough hunns .
if people whom met for one year , can get married . we should have babies already .
what the hell .
*plays it's not over by secondhand serenade*
apparently , i cannot find the lyrics for that .
why is it over ?
we're falling apart .
you're breaking my heart .
don't tell me we could never be together .
we could be forever .
it's not over .
my heart belongs to only you , my love (:

style never goes out of fashion

2008-02-03T00:00:00.000+08:00

funny mehh ?? hah hah . it was just a random sentence .
was watching steven lim's stupid videos at claudear's .
i was totally grossed out from his armpit hair , his horrible singing and his fugly face ! eew !
go check it out & be grossed out if u want , www.stevenlim.net.com
ughh , can't stand his singing , his stripping , his fugly face .
still say he's the most handsome man on earth . *pukes*
i'd rather kiss the floor than admit it .
sad to say , no more reunion dinner at Tung Lok , goodbye to wearing that prom dress .
apparently , M said she wanted to save moneyy , so guess what ?!
we're having reunion dinner at Turf City ! *rolls eye*
at least we're saving money here ! heck care about the ambience .
there goes my prom dress . *disappointed*
now , i guess i shall wear shorts and slippers . for reunion dinner . hah .
aint that sooo 'formal' ?
god knows why , sarcasm is always in my mouth .
as i said , once a meanie , always a meanie . am i right , claudia ?? hahahahha .
meanie rocks !
PS: i had a fun time with you my love :)

this is for you my love (:

2008-02-01T23:23:00.000+08:00

my love (:
i know you're working your guts out right now somewhere .

so i shall be the understanding girlfriend and wait for you to come back .

is that sweet enough ?
i know my phonecalls have become from sweetness to irritance .
but i'm just worried about you hunn .
it's already 11.36 pm and you're still in the office .
i hope you're not alone , or worse still with that 40-year-old lady .
school's been pretty tiring these days .
practical test have been such a bother .
i do not wish to retake , i'd rather go on a petition to drive that LWC out !
FYI , LWC = Lam Woan Ching .
if you don't know who she is , she's one old hag who is friggin rude to her students .
of cos wad , she comes from ITE , what do you expect .
and guess what , she's still a virgin , i hope , MISS LAM = not married = VIRGIN !
okayy , some descriptions of her , she resembles Huang Bi Ren but UGLIER VERSION in her skinny clothes and all . imagine that old hag talking and nagging away . whatever .
managed to finish my literature review . (:
i have my weekends for my babyy !
ohh , would be having reunion dinner/M's birthday dinner at Tung Lok Restaurant .
and my brother asked me dress formally as it would be classy .
oh please , since when do i not know the dress code huh ?
i shall wear my prom dress there , hah , and everyone would think i'm getting married.
what the hell ?! just that the groom had ran away . hah . runaway groom .
can't wait for my lappy to be reapired so that i can charge my ipod , i can play SIMS, i can listen to my itunes, i can see all my photos, i can upload photos, blahblahblah .
i'm using sam's Compaq by the way, and it doesn't have a single photo of me in it .
so i shall upload tonnes of my pretty pictures in it . (:
if i can one wish come true , i'll wish for everlasting money and forever , long & graceful hair.
Amen.
XOXO
NAT

sayang , aku minta maaf

2008-01-31T23:16:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry .
but i had a fun time with you , though i was in much pain .
you beared it all . no matter what i did , you took it all in your stride .
i was in agony , you weren't .
i threw my tantrums , you blamed it all on you .
where did you get the patience and perserverance ?
why can't i be like you ?
why is it always me ? i can't help it . it just controls my feelings and all .
i didn't meant to put it out on you , knowing you had a long day .
i should have kept it all inside .
the ending was the most miserable part . i hated it .
it's hard to say goodbye. and all the guilt would just rush through my blood .
making me apologize a million times .
the swimming pool talk was good , except for some spoiling moments .
so was the dinner at the unscrupulous place .
i feel really bad right now , if only i could turn back time , and cherished you more .
instead of bickering with you , i could have loved you more .
if i had the chance to , i'll hold you tighter with my arms around you , not letting you go .
i miss those times at blossomvale . the playground . the pool . everywhere had memories of you . good ones especially . right here , all i can think of is the negative ones . thinking about the time when you were here with me . when we walked scooby down . everything just flashes back in my memory . if only , history could repeat itself . i would be glad .
sayang , aku minta maaf .

simple post that says i love you

2008-01-30T22:40:00.000+08:00

Simple post -
had dinner with him at Int'l Plaza , as he had a interview .
and then we headed to his grandparents' house .
stayed there for awhile and headed home .
just this basic stuff that he do , makes me contented .
as long as he's with me , by my side .
although he has got a new job already , he still haven't quit mac yet .
i don't know why , is he so reluctant to quit it .
ohwell , gonner see him on fridayy , i hope .
babyy : i really wish that we can stop bickering over minor stuff .
claudia : i'm sorry bout the online bloggy thing . i'm so busy at school , when i'm free , i'll take some pictures kayy ?
i really want to go shopping againn .
i love the feeling of freedom purchasing without any worries . hah .
who doesn't anyway ?
i have an urge to go Sentosa and relax under the sun . who wannna go ??
everyone's really busy luh .
i hate the life in s'pore can , but come to think of it , life in other places are somewhat similar too . :/
i'm a happy girl !
i have SUPER-GREAT GIRLFRIENDS !
and MY BOYFRIENDS ROCKS !
natalie loves you :)

emotional post -

2008-01-29T20:57:00.000+08:00

emotional post -
down and out , whatever they say .
he promised . to be there . for the plans and all .
and now he says no . i really do not understand u at all .
sometimes , when i feel down , i needed u there . but you're not .
so i just think that maybe tomorrow would be a better day .
i thought u wanted to quit mac ? what 5weeks probation ?
and now , you're back at it ? were u lying to me all this time ?
and when i hanged up the phone , did u even bother to call me back ?
i don't want to quarrel in front of my brother . but u force me to it .
u make me so hurt , disappointed . just everything that i can think of right now .
why ? does it pleases u to see me in this state ?
u said i don't love u anymore ,
if i don't , would i be crying when i'm typing this ?
why can't u look at things on my side and not think about yourself all the time .
i know u love money , but i love happiness . all i want is u to be with me .
at least once a week , is that just so hard ?
how about once a month ? once in 2months ? or once a year ??
perhaps , we've changed . things just don't seem easy these days .
everything's hard for each another . there's no easy way out .
perhaps we're both stressed out .
or perhaps , a change of heart .

boy , i love u so ...

2008-01-29T01:13:00.000+08:00

happy birthdayy amelia !
what u want for your pressie ??
i had a great time with my girlfriends and everyone !
i love the gossiping part , ha ha . i'm such a bitch .
whatever . i'm a bitch that's why u love me .
that's what i always say .
damn tired already luh .
wanna hurry blog then go and sleep .
tomorrow's lecture starts at 10am . ohmygod .
i've nothing much to say already .
i miss him so , but gotta wait , as he's busy at work .
PS: manicure on 5th february , ladies !
fyi , i just cut my nails short . goddammit . it's fugly now .
it takes time to heal as well as grow .
goodnight world , nat's gonner sleep .

shopping spree with love

2008-01-27T23:49:00.000+08:00

27 dresses was perfect indeed ;

it inspires me to be a wedding planner luh . it's worth it .

making ladies feel good on their important day , and that they can rely everything on you .

and when it comes to you , people will do the same to you .

spent almost 150 bucks on CNY clothes ,

most of it were accessories , shoes and bags . heh .

but still , i saved a 100 bucks kay . surprise surprise .

i'd normally spent the whole 300 in one go .

oh well , my babyy was there to stop me , hah .

thanks hunn , i hope u still enjoyed yourself , except the fact that u had to hold my shopping bags .

you even said you wanted me to shop freely , that's suh-weet luh .

i love u more than ever .

MY BOYFRIEND ROCKS ! (i bet someone's grinning now)

i bought pants , a bag , rings , shoes , a pouch , boxers , blahblahblah .

too bad , i aint that type who take picture of my stuff and post it in here .

that's so lame , and no nosey-posey people i hope . like to put their nose in everything .

hmmm , my practical's on tuesday . and boy , i need to mug mug mug .

random post for u my dear

2008-01-26T22:12:00.000+08:00

"i've just watched his wildest dreams come true , and none of them involving you ."

today was simply bored-ness
finally done with SAWI . *PHEW
so i can go shopping tomorrow !
i need some rewards in life right , my dear .
heels again babyy ??
kor's been such an ass , whatever .
i don't owe you my life .
hmmm , prolly start my nr soon .
next week is so busy .
i have sawi on mon , practical on tues , fon on thurs , and nr on fri . ohmygod .
my life is screwed up already .
FYI , my attachments are out . 25th february to 14th march .
for the first time , i'm with xin min .
ohwell , cos of the yep vietnam thing wad . but , i'm no longer going .
as my friend backed out , leaving me behind .
plus , i didn't really had the intention to go , as sam is going to NS soon .
aiyuh , my brains are going to crack soon .
march's seriously quitting nursing , i guess she's really serious about it .
i'm going to lose another friend .
*into oblivion by funeral for a friend plays*
friends come and go in this life . or . new friends = silver . old friends = gold . whatever .

sayang , aku minta maaf

2008-01-26T01:10:00.000+08:00

i've finally got the FIVE literature articles !
now , i've to start reading them . ohmygod .
it'll really drain my cells out can ?
sighh , why must this always happen ?
isn't there any prevention to this huh ?
aiyuh , i just hope that everything would be okay .
okayy , in short , we went to heeren to have dinner at billy bombers .
jalan jalan abit , then went to Wisma Atria as we wanted to shop at Topshop.
ooohh , i just love Topshop . anw , i spent $68 , and they gave me a eco-bag .
it doesn't look nice at all , it says Topshop shopper on it .
after that , we had a break at Starbucks and headed over to his .
i'd really didn't expect it to be this ending , honey .
why does it seems like i enjoy doing it to you babyy ?
remember our promise kayy ?
for i will never ever forget it .