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Reality ain't exactly my forte Neither is anything else for that matter. Tuesday, October 30, 2007
i love you •
 Ohmygod, it's Tuesday alr?& i have dancing tmr? That's like wow; time just passes real fast when you're having fun Gosh, my attachment pay aint out yet. I'm fucking poor now can. I seriously want that 150 bucks. I think we need to talk it out. We are definitely not like this before. We are seriously drifting apart. Can we solve this? I have no confidence anymore. I just am so scared to lose you. I think saying this is no longer useful. Forget it. Perhaps, this wasn't even meant to be forever. But, i'm glad that we were once, so madly in love. I'm sorry. Maybe i'm not no longer that perfect girl in your heart. Monday, October 29, 2007
emotion-less •
 School sucks like fuck. 8am all the way till 6pm. I feel like dying. Soon, the exams would be here. & here comes the attachments. -.- how boring life can be? Aren't there supposed to be spices in my life? I don't seem to have any. I miss my girlfriends badly. Sad to say, i think they have alr forgotten me. Perhaps, without me in their life would be better. Perhaps. Anyhow, Supposed to meet Sam for dinner, then he called & said he had to work. So, i went home instead. he felt guilty, & kept apologizing to me. I was already used to it. This is a norm to me alr. :/ & he said he would see me after his work, ard midnight, so i will see him then. Perhaps, i would be alr in my sleep. Perhaps not. I feel emotionless. There's nothing in my life that would make me thrill. Perhaps, my life is indeed a boring one. Come to think of it, i'm only living for 20 people. These 20 people are the reason why i'm still living in this world. Is that alot or pathetic? I should know myself. -.- Sunday, October 28, 2007
would you be there? •
 If I were blue,would you be there for me, And whisper in my ears that's ok. Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight, And say you love me one more time. If I feel good, would you slow dance with me, And touch my lips with tender loving care, Would you die for me, would you run with me, And never look back... Would you be there to love, to be with me? Would you swear that your love is always true? Would you say that you'll always be the one,to take my breath away? If I am away, would you still think of me, And wished that you could hold me now. Would you die for me, would you run with me, All the way ... Would you be there to save my soul tonight, Would you swear that your love is always true, Would you say that you always be there, To kiss my pain away. would u be there? I think this song is so meaningful. I can seriously relate to it, as he's always not there most of the time, by my side, but in my heart all the time. Respect. If you respect the other, the other will respect you. I just cannot believe you did that. It's unbelievable. You are despicable shit ! I do not respect you the way i do, anymore. You're such a DISGRACE to the family. I abhor you to the core. We went to Sharifah's house for Hari Raya visiting. & boy, was the food so good, i just love the cookies her aunt made. It's dee-li-cious!! We has soo much fun playing snakes & ladders, etc. Shalini's such a funny girl. :D Too bad, March & Jasmine missed all the fun. Ohh well, next year then. ha ha. I'm kidding luh. Ohh yuh, how about fridayy? Want to come over to my house? & play mahjong. School's tomorrow, how fast can that be? I haven't even done my revision yet. I'm in dead shit. Saturday, October 27, 2007
miss me, mister •
 Miss me, miss me, now you've gotta kiss meIf you kiss me, mister, I might tell my sister If I tell her, mister, she might tell my mother, and my mother, mister, she might tell my father, and my father, mister, he won't be too happy and he'll have his lawyer come up from the city and arrest you, mister, so I wouldn't miss me if you get me mister,see? Miss me, miss me now you've gotta kiss me, If you kiss me, mister, you must think I'm pretty, if you think so, mister, you must want to fuck me, if you fuck me, mister, it must mean you love me! if you love me mister, you would never leave me! it's as simple as can be! Miss me, miss me now you've gotta kiss me, If you miss me mister, why do you keep leaving? If you trick me, mister, I will make you suffer and I'll get you, mister, put you in the slammer and forget you mister, then you'll miss me, won't you? won't you miss me, won't you miss me? Won't you miss me?! Miss me, miss me now you've gotta kiss me, if you kiss me mister, take responsibility! I'm fragile, mister, just like any girl would be, and so misunderstood.. So treat me delicately! Miss me, miss me now you've gone and done it! hope you're happy in the county penitentiary! It serves you right, for kissing little girls!.. but I'll visit..if you miss me.. Say you miss me! How's the food they feed you, Do you miss me?Will you.. kiss me through the window... Do you miss me, miss me! ..will they ever let you go? I miss my mister so. Drezden Dolls - I think this poem is juvenile. 'Miss me, miss me, now you've gotta kiss me.' *Rolls eye* The song 'innocence' is vaguely on my mind. ''It's so beautiful, it makes you wanna cry." I spent the whole day resting at home, THANKS to that fucking time of the month. That's one of the things why i hate being a girl. Every month, i have to walk girly-ly & not run, if not the thing will get dislocated. I have to avoid cold drinks. I have to avoid going into the swimming pool unless i use tampons, which is unlikely to happen. I have to waste moolah on buying pads. I have to avoid wearing white bottoms, if not there will be a blood stain. Anyhow, i've heard about this reusable pad going on. Ohmyfgod, RE-USABLE PADS?? How gross can that be?? I will never ever RE-USE my pad!! Totally-disgusting. Imagine the pad is filled with blood, & the idea of RE-USING it has NEVER crossed my mind. Ugh, i better stop. It's gonner be R21 already. Oh well, is being mean a crime? I mean that's just me. Perhaps i am mean, but why must i be the 'goody-two-shoes'?? I ain't no 'goody-two-shoes'. I'm a MEAN GIRL. Ugh, if anybody wants to object that, i'm fine with that. Oh, whatever. I'm going to Sharifah's tmr, & i'm still clueless on the dress code. Conservative huh? Is 3/4 pants conservative enough?? I don't give a hoot though. :/ I shall go & have my beauty sleep then. Goodnight, World. Sweet dreams my LA ex. Friday, October 26, 2007
The handmaiden's tale •
 It's Friday I'm in love.Dunno why, but i'm in with this mask thingy. Just because of gossip girl's handmaiden show. & Nate's soo hawt! It's beautiful isn't it? I prefer blair's mask tho. I'm feeling ecstatic todayy. I went shopping with jasmine & that EXTREMELY loud radio. My loot was satisfying tho. & i'm so happyy. THANKS babeh! I LOORVE YOUU! Reached home ard 7plus, & i just had muh dinner. While my sis who's smart enuff to skip the 'tongkat' food. I miss him badly. I thought i could see him tonight after work. But, he just told me that he's working at midnight. & will prolly will end at 7am. I should be pissed right now, but he's sleeping. So, i guess there isn't any reason why i should wake him up. Ohh well, i'm reading my IT girl again. ha ha. I know it's stupid, but i just bought the new edition. I need to do revision for my studies luh. It's so damn boring luh. Pharmacology. Anatomy & Physiology. Nursing Research. Fundamentals Of Nursing. ALL THESE ARE MAKING MY BRAIN JUICES GO WILD! Perhaps, school's just like that. They force you to take UNWANTED subjects. I wish i could be one of the gossip girls. I know, they're just so way cool. Gossip, gossip, gossip. It's a girl's thing, mann. & nobody's gonner deny that. You know you love me. XOXO, Gossip Girl. Thursday, October 25, 2007
happy ending •
 It's one of those days againWith no sleep & no mood Feeling drastically restless; & emotional It's Friday tomorrow, & i guess we'll be going out again. Plus this Sunday's gathering at Sharifah's. I'm defintely ecstatic The one thing coincidentally happened was what exactly happened yesterday. I had a tiff with him & so did Jasmine I was shocked when she told me this just now. Ohh well, perhaps certain things can come in pairs. I hope things aren't the way it was anymore. After what happened yesterday, i guess it's time to change for the better. & i hope he likes the better me, prolly hope he'll change his too. :D I simply love gossip girl. Wednesday, October 24, 2007
Shall we dance? •
 OhmygodSo much for complaining about dancesports, i'm getting the hang of it, & i'm lovin' it. Who knows. March & i will go take it as our cca. :D Ohh kay, i'm STILL considering. It was really fun luh, i DIDN'T step on anybody's foot luh, & it gets really tiring when the music gets faster & faster, & we have to catch up to the music. Ohh well, i still prefer hip hop luh. :/ It's like modern dance, you know? But what about Shall we dance or Take the lead? It's also about dance sports. Aiya, who cares a shit? As long as we're having fun right?? I love p16 & p15 tutorials, they can be so much fun & laughter. :D It's been a long time since i've watched a movies alr. :/ & i want to watch 'Mr Woodcock' Nobody wants to watch with me, nobody asked me out. :/ I'm such a LONER. Ohh yuh, so much for studying for nsl test, Ms suhana deliberately gave us all the answers luh. Guess she wants a good reputation i guess. I'm freaking tired luh, when will this ever end? :/ I miss my frnds. & i think i'm already forgotten. Monday, October 22, 2007
when it falls apart •
 OHH YEAHH, OHH YEAHH! Xin Min & i are finally in the same shift during our CA. I'm ecstatic luh, It's like, the very first time we're having CA together. Although it's at NUH this time, & God knows where is it. :/ Monday blues are here again, almost late for class, thanks to the stupid rain. :/ It seems like, more people take buses on rainy days lor, & 61 is so filled with humans, that the driver don't even bother to STOP! I miss 3buses just because of that. -.- Finally, i just had to call my brudder & ask him to fetch me to school. THANK GOD, i wasn't late for school. :D Ohh my, practical tmr? What a bore, i hate dr. red. :/ He looks & acts like an adult baby luh. Why are lecturers so childish?? & why must the rain interfere in my school days? I just abhor the weather, just when i'm starting to like school, it rains. & when i'm hating school, it heats up. -.- If only one day, all of us can skip school, & we'll go out & enjoy just for a day. :D I know, i can continue day-dreaming. -.- I really miss my frnds. :/ Amelia, Nassa, Claudia, Amalyna, Jacintha, Suhashini, etc. I miss all of you guys. Can i turn back time, just to appreciate you all more? :/ Ohkay, i've got to stop, i'm getting emo again. haha. School's getting tiring again, :/ & we seldom meet up anymore. I don't like this. When everything ends? When it falls apart? What will you do? Will you think of me, like you always do? Sunday, October 21, 2007
Love is all about you & me •
 I'm feeling rather vexed these daysMaybe it's because of the boredom, or perhaps something else. he came over at 4am ytd, & we went for breakfast at 7, i know, it sounds absurd right. & we headed home to sleep. -.- woke up ard 3pm in the afternoon, & i went out with jann to bukit timah plaza for lunch, ate pizza hut. :D & brought home 2pizzas for him to eat. he woke up at 6pm, had his lunch/dinner & off he went for work. So this is how our lives revolve ard each other. -.- Interesting huh? That's why, i always keep myself busy at school. Anyhow, i'm still thinking of that 100 dollar bag. My frnds will definitely say i'm crazy, but, perhaps this is an affection to me. & i need to do an investment yeahh? March says we should prolly invest in clothes or bags, not books. I totally agreed with her, but Rui hao was saying that we should invest in books instead. ha ha. Perhaps, that's his life. My life is about retail therapy. Jasmine's..hmmm..i think it should be dogs. ha ha. Or maybe shopping too. :D Tmr's lecture starts at 9. :/ I'll prolly have to wake up at 745. I'm feeling so lazy luh. Perhaps, school ain't that great anymore. Saturday, October 20, 2007
how i breathe •
 UghI hate Saturdays or even Sundays. I have nothing to do at all. Just revision, or perhaps just slack? God knows what has got into him, being grumpy & moody towards us. I hate him being like that. It's only lucky draw, what's the big deal man? You might not even win the first prize. I don't know why Singaporeans are so eco-friendly these days just because NTUC came up with a 'no-plastic bag day'? & everyone just hurried to buy the NTUC bag so that they can save the world, & be eco-friendly? I think if everyone does this, then perhaps we can save the world but, only 25% of the whole Singapore population are doing it & i'm getting annoyed by their kiasuism. Just now, i was at NTUC buying groceries just when we decided to pay for the goods, the sales auntie asked 'Do you need a plastic bag to put the toilet roll in'? My sis & i said 'no' in unison, & she replied 'Thank you for saving the environment.' We were stunned by her words, & we just laughed at her. She was being lame luh. -.- Maybe she was doing her job but if i were her, i wouldn't even say that to the customers. It's such a disgrace. It's not as if the whole Earth is falling apart, & it needs our help by cutting down on plastic bags. Ugh, this is certainly annoying. I hope this will never happen to other places in Singapore. Why not use recycled boxes to put all the groceries in, just like Holland? It's more atas than plastic bags. Ohkay, drop this topic. I don't know what's got into me, but i am missing school alr. haha. I rather get myself all tired & busy, than staying at home doing nothing. I really miss gossip girl. Friday, October 19, 2007
shopping cures depression •
 I had a GREAT day todayyi ended class at 12pm it was only a 2hour lecture as i said hence, it was boring luh after that, we headed to bugis didn't have anything in mind to buy so we just walked ard bugis luh surprisingly, we saw alot of hsn students there too apparently, it seems like hsn students will more likely go to bugis on a free friday -.- my loot was not much though skinnies ear-studs tissue pouch but still, i don't know how i spent $40 :/ wanted to play mahjong tmr but, many said they were busy & all so i guess, it shall be cancelled then. i have no idea but i just have this crave for vintage bags now & i got my eyes on this bag which costs $119 i love it so much. :/ can any kind soul buy me that bag for christmas?? ohh well, somebody is urging me to play audition, so i guess i'd better go. Thursday, October 18, 2007
all in love is fair •
 I had a total of 6hours of break! It's a total waste of time. Though i do not mind at all. :D We were just trying to sleep in the library, but thanks to the classical music. -.- I seriously abhor Thursdays. It's a super-duper long day luh. :/ Anyhow, tmr is just a 2hour lecture, & i'm off to bugis :D shopping is always another alternative for distressing & my frnds are persuading me to cut fringe :/ should i go & cut? i don't know. :/ Some help here would be good. What's love actually? Love is all about compromising to each other that's my own perspective, i guess sometimes, there may be a conflict & these however fiery it may get, will help to build up the relationship better & it will make you know more about each other better too Love is a strange thing, indeed. It can get you into fiery fights & quarrels & yet get you into lovey dovey moments I just don't understand why, some people, perhaps, "once bitten, twice shy." they are afraid to fall in love. however ridiculous it may sound, i happen to know a few of my frnds who are actually like that unfortunately gossip girl my all-time favourite show apart from desperate housewives luh -.- i'm waiting for season 4 to be released. :D Sadly, gossip girl isn't showed in hbo or star movies. :/ i think blair is evil, but i love her. Wednesday, October 17, 2007
First you say won't, then you say you will •
 Yet, another ordinary day. :/had sports & wellness todayy, & guess what?? it was totally chaotic luh. :/ i joined dance sports. God knows what that is. So, please don't ask me. I heard it was some kind of salsa dance. Dammit. :/ I wanted to join others. But, i just didn't know which. So, i'm just left in a dilemma. Anyhow, i'll just see how it's like luh. See if i can cope anot. Just try new things luh. :D ohh well, i had mac for breakfast. :D As we had a 3hour break, so we went to kap & had a little chat session. It was funny like hell. Anyhow, went back to school for nsl, & headed off to West Mall with Sharifah. :D She bought a pair of new shoes. After walking around, we decided to head home. That's how my boring day had ended. I know it's boring luh. Ohh well, he's coming over after school today. & we'll prolly take a nap till 11pm. & we'll go out to withdraw his money. I'm damn sleepy luh. :/ I just don't know why these nights are so depressing. I abhor it luh. I hope he'll come home soon. :/ Don't know why i'm missing him so much. & i love his poem he sent me last night. It was so sweet. :D It's Wednesday i'm in love Tuesday, October 16, 2007
Love is colour blind •
 Don't know why these days,i'm having sleepless nights. Maybe it's because of you. I waited for your call, but you didn't call. I wanted to communicate with you, not even a singles text did i receive from you. Does this mean it's the end? I thought being together too often would start quarrels. But, being apart too often, too will start. So what am i supposed to do? We merely haven't met for 1day, & this is happening. :/ Ohh well, i have sports & wellness tmr, & i think i'm gonner choose floor ball or tennis. I don't know luh. or maybe yoga. Planned on going bugis with jas tmr, but no money luh. :/ i spent all on clothes alr. :D i want a sports bag. i want a black cardigan. i can't wait for Christmas. & i hope i won't have to spend Christmas in the hospital. it's so damn unlucky luh. :/ i'm thinking of getting a new mobile for Christmas. :D or perhaps a new lappy. but i don't think my brudder will buy. :/ feeling damn sleepy luh. ohh yuh, now xin min's in the same lecture as me! it's so much better luh. i can see her more often alr. :D now i know, i can't live without my ipod. it's my life. Music. Now, classes are getting more & more boring. Yet, we have to pay attention & listen to the lecturer. :/ i hope i can understand, don't wanna wait till exams are here. :/ it's so soon luh, dammit. Monday, October 15, 2007
What a motherfucker. •
 what thefuck?15th October 2007 i'll never forget this day had a tiff with him this morning as i was running late fr skool & i reluctantly brought Mr scoobs down fr a walk he followed & guess what we forgot to bring the keys -.- & we were locked outside my bag is inside the house how great thy work what else could be worst? we called the locksmith & we had to pay $90 just fr him to knock down the door? my brudder will kill me we had no other suggestions till he suggested to call my sister & how great she too, was running late fr skool she was so nice to offer to give me her keys but, 1 of us had to take a cab down to Dover mrt to take the keys from her -.- we can't possibly both go down cos of Mr Scoobs after much arguing and all he even asked me not to go to skool today i was so pissed that i just head out & got on the cab to Dover finally reached there but mei mei was nowhere to be seen the taxi driver had to make as many u-turns cos i couldn't find her at that moment, my cell was in my bag at home & i didn't take his phone as i left in a jiffy hoping that i could borrow the taxi driver's cell he claimed that he hasn't got one -.- it seems like everything was meant to go wrong thank God i saw wei chang & he lent me his cell :D & the story ends here i managed to get to skool in time & so did he i had a bad night & a bad morning -.- i slept at 4am last night woke up at 7am this morning 3hours of sleep was sufficient for me ohh well, skool's commenced alr everyone's busy again :/ Sunday, October 14, 2007
ohmygod •
 Ohmygodthe most annoying thing is going to happen tomorrow. Frankly speaking, I HAVEN'T CHOSE WHAT TO WEAR FOR SCHOOL ! i need retail therapy more moolah please ? ohh yuh, perhaps i'll bring extra clothes/slippers to change. :/ *drats & double drats xin min's having her's on weds why must mine be on Monday ? ohkayy, i knw i gotta stop complaining. ohh well, i need to get a shoe bag. :/ guess what ? slept at 8am this morning as i couldn't sleep the whole night. :/ thank God i don't have eye bag & i woke up ard 2 plus went back to slp & woke up at 7pm. i think i'll definitely become a zombie if i carry on with this sleeping habits. worse still, school's just a day away ! anyhow, baby's coming over later ard 2am & he'll send me to school. :D can we have breakfast at mac hunns ? i crave for pancakes milk honey hash browns they drive me to the wall ! ohmygod, i think i'm getting too excited here just thinking about school tomorrow !! finally, the day has come for us to meet. i haven't seen march, jasmine, zara, hidayah & fiona for quite a long time don't know why, friends always come in five. & we become the six musketeers -.- Pardon me Saturday, October 13, 2007
Abhorrence is a state of bliss •
 Yesterday was fun !Though, i managed to sleep ard 6 plus. It was worth the wait, hor amelia ? She's damn funny luh, budget for the time being. Ohh well, you gotta thank us, girl. hahah. Clubbing today ?? I would like to, but i'm damn broke now. Skool's starting soon, & gotta save money. :/ I was starting to have fun right now. & skool's round the corner. Anyhow, amelia showed me some photoshop stuff ytd. & now i feel like doing it too ! but, i don't have adobe photoshop. :/ any kind soul who's willing to lend me his/her adobe photoshop cd ? he's gone back to work alr. :/ thought we could have one more day together, but today is HARI RAYA. everyBODY have gone for visiting, so he has to go back to work. :/ Sigh, no more fun nights. He has work, i have school. Why like that ? Why is that the good times are always gone so fast ? I'm in a dilemma right now. :/ Monday's school already. & i have sports & wellness. Fuck that man. The stupid thing is i have to wear pe attire to school, & prolly for the whole day. I think i'll look damn stupid, especially we are supposed to wear sports shoes?? Ohmygod, i think i'm so gonner ruin my first day in school. :/ I want to look good on the first day. Why God won't approve that simple wish of mine?? Thinking about sports & wellness seriously spoils my mood. I mean, you're gonner sweat under the hot, scorching sun, & go for lectures in those filthy smelly clothes?? No thanks, man. I'd rather take a bath or perhaps, change clothes. :D + perfume sprays too. I do not mind skipping my lunch, just to feel good, and look good, and smell good. hahah. I think my friends will think i'm out of my mind if i did that. But, i will do that. Perhaps, you guys can buy me a sandwich or something. :D Ohh well, i'm like looking forward to school, & this sports & wellness thing spoils everything. So i'm not gonner let it spoil my day too. hahah. I think i'll prolly wear the ngee ann orientation shirt + my fbt. that's normal pe attire i guess. hahah. if not, what else can i wear?? my french's coming out. :/ i'm too lazy to go and do again. prolly will take it out sooner or later. frankly speaking, i think it's too natural for people to notice. hahah. & i guess that should be a compliment though. :D Seeing everybody busy-ing in school makes me feel stressful, for i'm going to be like them in 2days time. :/ Thursday, October 11, 2007
Gossip girl •
 Gossip GirlI seriously encourage girls to watch this, or perhaps, read. It's totally exciting. & the dudes are super-hot, & the girls, their clothes are superb! Well, what can you expect from the rich & beautiful. It's like this whole world, filled with popularity. & being in this world, people will talk. It shows how the rich & popular people live their life, the way they want to. We aren't the nicest people in the world, but we make up for it in looks and taste. I mean, who doesn't want to have this kind of lifestyle? Even, if you're poor, you still can become one of them. I know this show is a bit stereotyping. Doesn't mean you are rich & beautiful, & all the hot dudes would want you. Isn't it ridiculous. Blair is rich & gorgeous, but her attitude sucks, yet Nate still stick with her. Though he slept with Serena, but he still flew back to Blair. & it seems like Nate doesn't fancy Blair, though they were childhood friends. :/ Ohh kayy, enough of gossip girl. I went shopping with my sister today, & i bought lotsa things. I'm thinking of going for a classic manicure, anyone interested? I heard classic is more relaxing, & it's 'durable'. Unlike express manicure, it's done too fast, hence it isn't perfect. :/ Oh well, I'll prolly do it before school starts. :D i hope i can do it on Saturday, baby! XOXO You know you love me Wednesday, October 10, 2007
I don't love you like i did yesterday •
 Can you tell me where it hurts?Cos i'm bleeding in my heart. No one can understand this feeling. I need him. You need her. So simple. Why must you always break us up? I'm sorry but i have to say this. I love it when you're out of town, cos i can get my life back. Shop till late nights, out with my friends till morning, sleepovers at friend's houses, etc. I thought everything would be perfect, i didn't know you will change to become a naggy 'wife'. I am starting to hate you. I know this won't end at all. I seriously can't wait to grow up, and get my own house, or perhaps marry fast and leave this place. I know i shouldnt be doing this, but i seriously hope this ends tonight and forever. I hate you so much. Do you care how i feel? You still said you don't like me to cry, but you are making me cry. What the hell?! Why must my life be so miserable? I don't give a shit. I'm still gonner live my life the way i want. I don't fucking care about you. Monday, October 08, 2007
yes, i love you too •
 I hope u had fun in the chalet, dear.For love is happiness to your loved ones. It's time to head back home. You've had fun with your friends. Well, i haven't planned much for tmr tho. :/ Supposed to go Sentosa with jas & her bf, but i think it has been cancelled alr. & my frnds would be busy at school, ohh well, i'll just think of something then. Ohh yuh, about that bbq coming on. I was thinking of having it on this Friday or something. But, i'm not sure how many people are coming. :/ Samm's calling his friends too, & of cos i'll be calling mine too. Ohh well, i hope it will turn out as planned. :D I'm sorry for the misunderstanding. I hope everything's fine now. Sunday, October 07, 2007
better than me •
Isn't this song super-sweet? He sang to me this song last night, playing his guitar, everything was perfect. - Better than me-Hinder I think you can do much better than me After all the lies that I made you believe Guilt kicks in and I start to see The edge of the bed Where your nightgown used to be I told myself I won't miss you But I remembered What it feels like beside you I really miss your hair in my face And the way your innocence tastes And I think you should know this You deserve much better than me - While looking through your old box of notes I found those pictures I took That you were looking for If there's one memory I don't want to lose That time at the mall You and me in the dressing room I told myself I won't miss you But I remembered What it feels like beside you I really miss your hair in my face And the way your innocence tastes And I think you should know this You deserve much better than me The bed I'm lying in is getting colder Wish I never would've said it's over And I can't pretend I won't think about you when I'm older Cause we never really had our closure This can't be the end I really miss your hair in my face And the way your innocence tastes And I think you should know this You deserve much better than me I really miss your hair in my face And the way your innocence tastes And I think you should know this You deserve much better than me (And I think you should know this) (You deserve much better than me) - Maybe this is why i love my baby. ;) only hope •
 You're out there now, & I'm here. With nothing on my mind, but you. Called you several times, yet to no response. Perhaps, you're having the time of your life right now, & i'm not. You have all your friends' companion, & i have boredom. I am eagerly waiting for the reopening of school, or perhaps an outing with my girlfriends. So i won't miss you too much. Be independent, girl. That's all you can say. I will call you back, & you never ever did. I know you need time with your friends, you need space. So do i. I miss my friends too. I need them too. Saturday, October 06, 2007
baby, i'm yours. •
 It's 11.53pm.Life is indeed filled with ups and downs. There are times when i'm super happy, & times when i'm sad. We went out today, finally. & now it's over so soon. he's going fr a chalet with his frnds, & will only be back on Tuesday. :/ 1)No more night walks to Esso. 2)No more rides on the trolley. 3)No more see-saw rides with Scooby. 4)No more ping pong games at the car park. 5)Nobody to bring Mr. Scoobs down with me. 6)Nobody to talk to at night. 7)Nobody to play Mario with me. To make me feel better, i'd rather be out with my frnds, than to stay at home & cry. Well, it's only 2days girl. :D I hope everything will be alright. Anyhow, I went out with him to Far east plaza. He bought a tee & sunglasses. While, i bought a vintage bag. :D I love it! & it costs $55.90 Sounds crazy huh? I don't know. Maybe it was sort of an affection, or something. Cos' after much discussion with him, i've decided to get it. & baby's paying fr me too! :D I really had a great time with him. My feet were bloody painful, & blisters were forming out, & he was like frantically finding a pharmacy fr me, as he didn't want me to be in pain. & we went to Takashimaya, got those plasters fr me. :D You're such a sweetie, baby. Thanks fr everything. I'll just wait till Tuesday, & we'll bring jasmine over to my house, & we'll go swimming together. :D Always look on the bright side of life. Friday, October 05, 2007
Say ooh la la! •
 5th October 2007Happy 17th birthday, mei. May all your wishes & dream turn into reality. & wishing that you may find your Mr. Right soon. :D After much editing, i decided not to put my photo in here, as it's too squeezy, & it's YOUR day. :D Supposed to have a slumber party tonight, but unfortunately, it had been cancelled, or perhaps, postponed. :/ Ohh well, its all right, i still have him here. :D & we can always have this another time. In fact, i've been planning fr a bbq. Is anyone interested?? I do hope there is. Jas & March are finally free. So we can go out alr! Ohh yes, next thursday kay? We'll go paint the town red. :D Let's partay!! Thursday, October 04, 2007
It just feels so miserable. •
 Oh shucks!My sis's b'day is tmr, & thinking that she's going out wit her frnds, i decided to make plans wit my friends on going out tmr. & now she said that her frnds aint free tmr, so decided to celebrate it today. & now, i can't go out wit my frnds. :/ What shud i do?? & ame, amalyna aint free at all. & nassa's broke like a church mouse. :/ I'm seriously bored-ed to death alr. I've got nothing to do till skool reopens. :/ He's having his exams tmr, that somehow explains the boredom i'm going through here. & i just want to be out of this house, out of this state, maybe go to Orchard to have a coffee. Nah, i hate coffee, maybe have a drink & just chill? Somehow, that's alot better than being cooped up at home. :/ I want to play in that trolley again hunns. Ohh yuh, i havent got mei a present yet, & she wanted A cash for her Audition game. -___- I knw that's kinda lame, but better than the Manchester United jersey wit C.Ronaldo's name on it. & it costs 100+++ Sorry sista, i aint that rich. ha ha. Anyways, i just got to meet my frnds, maybe after dinner wit my family then. |