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Reality ain't exactly my forte Neither is anything else for that matter. Sunday, September 30, 2007
i miss you baby •
 I think i'm rather emotional. :/I don't knw, i just cant help it. Thank you baby, fr staying over these days, & now that you're gone, I'm missing you. i miss you sitting beside me, & talking to me on msn. i miss watching scary shows with you. i miss going down to walk Mr Scoobs with you. i miss sitting on the see-saw with you. i just miss everything about you. Anyhow, good luck fr your exam hunns! I knw it's a little early, I knw you can do it, baby. It's easy, huh? I'm sorry. I had fun with jasmine just now, tho she really got on my nerve. Ohh yuh, you didn't send me the songs that i enlisted. :/ Ohh well, some other time then. :D I seriously want to go out with my friends. I miss all of them. & apparently, it seems like ALL of them are BUSY!! DRATS. :/ My life is indeed boring. No one is brightening up my life right now. :/ Goodnight world. I shall have my beauty sleep. :D Friday, September 28, 2007
i'll stand by you.. •
 It's Friday alr, :/1week has passed. just like that. 2more weeks to school, somehow, i miss school. :/ i miss my friends. he's completely recovered from his fever, & i'm esctatic. :D Anyhow, his friends are here, studying or whatsoever. & i'm in my room listening to music. i want to go out, yet i cant leave him alone. :/ anyhow, he'll be having his exams next week, & he'll prolly start work in the week after. & maybe i'll be able to go out then, shopping anyone?? i feel like taking a dip in the pool, play with jasmine & samm. :D i'm really BORED here, with nothing to do, nothing to say, :/ when will jas & march end their attachment? I'M FREAKING BORED! Ohh yuh, might be going to Mdis with sweetie next week, then i can go meet claudear. :D will go crash her class. haha. i'm playing Stardoll & listening to Time After Time by Quietdrive. I kinda like the life right now, hope my brudder wont be back so soon. :D Anyhow, we had dinner at West Mall, at Mos Burger. & we headed home after that. My life's great when he's ard. :D Thursday, September 27, 2007
i miss my friends so much... •
 I SERIOUSLY WANT TO WATCHBalls Of Fury & I now pronounce you Chuck and Larry. :/ Anyhow, he's feeling better now, & that makes me feel a whole lot relieved. It's Thursday alr, & he still havent started his revision yet. :/ He had been ill fr the past few days luh, poor baby. So, i've been staying at home fr the past few days. & it's pretty boring. Little jasmine came over just now, to see Mr Scoobs. :D She's so adorable, but IRRITATING at times. hah. I'm SUPER-BORED luh. :/ Anyhow, my brudder's out of town again, & i'm SUPER-HAPPY! I CAN SPEND SUPER LATE NIGHTS AGAIN! :D But unfortunately, this will all end by Sunday. Cos he will be back by then. :/ He's been cranky these days, laughing at things which are not funny at all. -_- tho it's great to see him laughing again, but i just dont want him to be sick again. I just pray to You, Lord. Help me. Wednesday, September 26, 2007
i love my frnds. :) •
 Every body's getting sick these days. :/Went to the doc's with him this morning, he was willingly to go, as his temperature was forty-two degrees. We then, had breakfast at his house, then we headed back to my house to sleep. :D I was freaking tired luh. We then, went to Cheers to get lunch. & now, he's sleeping like a pig. I think i'm gonner get sick too. :/ Having this major headache. Supposed to go to Mdis todayy, to return his books that he had borrowed. But, as the both of us were sick & tired, we decided to postpone it to tmr. I really hope he will recover soon. Lord, i pray to You. I so want to, buy more shorts for school wear. :D NO MORE JEANS, BABY. I think jeans are FREAKING HOT luh. I mean, it's so hot inside, & suffocates my legs. I know that's ridiculous, well, it's my logic. & i have to wait for jas & march to get over their attachment, and here goes bugis. :D I miss them so. :/ I wonder how they're getting on right now. Anyhow, i'm glad i got to have a chat with jas tho. I knw she was bored while waiting fr her bf, but i'm glad that she was thinking of me. :D I wonder how Zara, Fiona & hidayah is. :/ I miss the 6 of us luh. WHEN WILL SCHOOL EVER START?? I love without me by Eminem. I love love story by Katherine mcphee. I love chick fit by All saints. I love she's so lovely by Scouting for girls. I'm so into music right now, they're like my ONLY COMPANION. :D & i seriously miss amalina. :/ Maybe i should give her a call. Ohkay, i've called her, & guess what?? SHE'S HAVING HER HOLIDAYS TOO!! OMG! I'm so happy, so we can meet, like FINALLY! WE'VE GOT SO MUCH TO CATCH UP LUH! :D My life's getting It's gonner be the end of the month! More moolah for me please? Tuesday, September 25, 2007
it's a typical love story •
 What a day indeed.He's at thirty-nine degrees now. And stubbornly, Does not want to see the Doctor. :/ I'm just so hopeless right now. I do not knw what to do. He's feeling hot, yet cold inside. I can only stand at one side & see him suffer. I've sleepless nights, & he's my only worry. I hope that he will be fine in a day or two. So that he can carry on with his studies, and our life will be back to normality. :D Just came back, from Paya Lebar, don't ask me why i went there. i was merely following my brudder. he went to repair his car motor & whatsoever. i just went there to sweat it out. haha. it's freaking hot out there luh. i hate singapore. :/ that's why, australia you knw. haha. that's about all, i've got to look after him alr. :/ And i so wanna watch I now pronounce you Chuck & Larry luh. I think it's so damn nice. :D Please watch with me, baby? Monday, September 24, 2007
I just love spending time with you. •
 Monday is here,like finally, mann. I waited so long for this day. My friends are like, busy at school. My sister, is like also busy at school. Only he, who's having study break now, can like acconpany me for now. :D YAY! I'm the happiest girl alive again! -_- My everyday life is like, games, games, games, and more games. :D She's so lovely, she's so lovely... i just love that song. :D Sing it to me again, baby. I love spending time with you hunns. You always make me feel carefree, happy, etc. Maybe this is the feeling of love. I'm awaiting of the next episode of Gossip Girl to come out. And it's taking like, forever. :/ I simply cannot wait anymore. Sunday, September 23, 2007
lalala... •
 By now,you should have known. I don't see why you simply fail, this proves insincerity. Was it on purpose? God knows. Sundays are for couples to be together, and here we are, separated. Maybe i've too many things on my mind, that's why. I don't know. I'm freaking bored right now, my sister's out at East Coast, God knows why she's there, my brudder's out playing mahjong, God knows why is it so nice to play. :/ Anyhow, i just went over to Sam's. had dinner with him, sent him to work, and took a cab home. Wow, my life is so interesting, man. -_- Saturday, September 22, 2007
it's totally cool~ •
 22nd September -Xin Min's birthday.Claudear, Nassa, Mirabelle, Jie wan, Jia yi 7of us were at The Pitstop having tonnes of fun. :D I must thank claudear fr bringing us there. Tho it's kinda "ulu", haha. But we had fun yeahh?? PS: Amelia missed out all the fun. So sad. haha. You should have come luh, it's damn fun. :D I love the animal game the most, haha. It's like the most ridiculous game, with nassa shouting "meow" so loudly, haha. that the whole room can hear her meowing. haha. I'm now, into Gossip Girl. It has become a tv serial, when it was actually in the books. So i'm glad, :D It's really fun & nice. I had a fun & tiring day laughing my ass off, most of the time. :D Ohh yuh, vanessa, you got something in your hair! haha. Never-ending joke. I have to wait till Monday, then i will be able to see him. :/ I miss him so. Friday, September 21, 2007
I'm missing you again. •
 Woke up at about 10am in the morning, had breakfast at ghim moh market, went to see my mom, as today is her birthday. 21st September, how could i even forget? We then headed off to The Zoo. I knw it's kinda lame, due to my brudder's persistent bothering. We walked & walked & finally took the tram. It's really really tiring luh. *People who would like to lose weight, try running ard the zoo, with those animals and their droppings, it will certainly make you run faster. The animals there were normal, haha. But i saw a baboon's face, and it's one fugly shit luh. It's freaking ugly. Anyhow, Mid-autumn festival is next Tuesday. Oooh! I want some snowskin mooncakes please? So far, i've only eaten durian. :/ I want more luh. Dunno when my pay will come, then i can go shopping. :/ I heard that maybe when school reopens, then the money will come into my account. HUH? NO THANK YOU! I want to go shopping before school starts can? UGH. Samm's at work now. :/ He's been staying over for about 2-3 nights alr. I knw it's hard to slp on the sofa hunns, so don't stay over my house anymore ohkay dear? I'm sorry luh, i'll try to find a mattress or perhaps a sofa-bed for you kay love? & i think you seriously need to get a new cell luh, Motorola sucks luh. It auto-offs your phone & crap all over. Whatever it is, i still support Sony Ericsson. If i'm gonner get a new cell, it better be Sony Ericsson. :D Anyways, i think i'm not getting a PSP anymore. :/ I'm not even a hardcore gamer anyway, so why get a PSP? I'd rather a Nintendo DS. :D Anyhow, i'd spend the money on clothes & shoes, than on these crappy stuff. Ohh yuh, i'm fully recovered from my influenza alr. :D & my sore throat's gone too! Thursday, September 20, 2007
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Ugh, what a day. I'm down with a flu. :/ And i'm stuck at home. He's at skool, and he'll be having a gathering with his friends at Marina. :/ I want to go too, baby. I had a really fun day with you at Vivo tho. :D You were so cute luh. And i love the rings you bought for me. plus the super-shiny earrings you've got. haha. see luh, now you don't even dare to wear it. And it costs like $10 bucks. rich ass dunno why, but i think gold seems to have the vintage feeling. that's why, i'm into gold stuff now. gold earrings, gold rings, it's so vintage & nice can? I'm like counting down my days.. i dont want to end a month holiday just like that. :/ i'm going to do something special. at the meantime, i havent think of that something yet. i dont know why, people tend to stereotype especially when they see the same things happening again. for example, i see my brother & sun quarrelling, and i see couples quarrelling outside. And, i stereotype. I say "Love is stupid. It only makes couples quarrel." "I dont want to be in a relationship anymore." What the hell? Have you seen the other side of the world yet? The happiness that Love can bring?? I think this is damn ridiculous. Anyways, i hope you will feel what Love is like when you're much older. For, i think this is just an act of juvenile. Grow up, please. Wednesday, September 19, 2007
i love you baby. •
 Ooohh!Watched 1408 todayy, well, it was a thriller. So what can you expect? Somehow, the ending is kinda silly. But i like the twist tho. :D Supposedly as it was said, to go Sentosa todayy. But, dunno why.. Never go. :/ Sun's gone back to Thailand w/o saying goodbye. Nothing much to blog, as Samm's been staying over at my house these days. :D He's such a sweetiepie. PS: I've got no plans for tmr. :/ Tuesday, September 18, 2007
IT'S SO NICE-TO-BE-HAPPY! •
 Should i be happy or sad??I'm no longer going to Thailand. :D For after much thoughts, my brudder like; finally thinks that going there is a waste of money. I'm so happy. He said he'd rather bring us to Wild Wild Wet, or maybe The Zoo. Dunno what's with him and The Zoo, he kept on saying that he wants to go there. now i don't have to leave my baby alone again. :D This is super-great news. Anyhow, i won't be having any plans for this whole month. So, puh-leeze call me out! Maybe next week or so, I'll go crash nassa's & ame's classes. :D I SERIOUSLY MISS AMALYNA!! She has a boyfriend!! I'm just so happy for her. :D Dunno why, but i feel happy when others find their happiness. Samm's like being crappy these days. A psp with diamonds can?? That'll be damn pretty please? Dream on girl. :/ He'll be having his exams soon. Boring luh. Tho he doesnt have to work, but then he still have to study. :/ Aiyo, at least he still can accompany me wad. What am i thinking mann?? Tsk tsk tsk! Anyhow, i'm freaking bored now can? :/ I wanna go clubbing. I wanna drink. I wanna go crazy. Blah blah blah... Monday, September 17, 2007
i'm missing you. •
 Monday huh?It doesnt feels like it, when you're out shopping. :D My loot seems to get lesser & lesser each day. Anyhow, i've got my black pumps. :D Plus plus, i've finally got my mobile pouch. The one that i've always wanted, with the turquoise brooch. I just LOVE my brudder, not forgetting sun. :D She's always helping me out when my brudder doesnt allow me to buy. What a nice sister-in-law. *Awws. Well, I dont want to go baby. But, i have to. :/ I knw we've been through this before. And i'm sure we can pull it through hunns. PS:Anybody wants anything from Thailand?? I'm going there unfortunately. :/ I'd rather stay in S'pore and rot tho. :D If you guys want anything, just text me kay?? Somehow, i'm totally against exercising. I seriously DO NOT want to go through all that sweat just to lose it all out. :/ I knw i'm lazy luh. But, i just want to be me. I don't want boys to like me coz i'm slim or sexy. I want them to like me coz i'm ME. Not someone else that I'M NOT. So, if he really loves me. He wouldnt even give a shit even if i look like.. some fugly bitch. For, i'll always be the same inside. :D I think i'll prolly leave for Thailand on Wednesday. And spend 5days there. :/ It seems so long. And i'm gonner miss you like a child misses their blanket. Sunday, September 16, 2007
Say ooh la la! •
 Oooh la la!Don't you just LOVE shopping?? Jann & i went to bugis village. Obviously to do our nails. :D Painted them deep red. And went to bugis junction to meet my brudder & sun. We then, walked ard. And i've bought a few things.. a top, a pouch from The nightmare before christmas, face masks from Missha. I'm happy with glee. :D It's confirmed. We'll be going to Thailand for a holiday maybe this wed. :/ I really DO NOT feel like going at all. I don't want to leave. I'll definitely get emo for the first 2days. :/ I can't help it. I guess i am emo. *Ugh Maybe i'm afraid of leaving him ALONE in Singapore. It's not him i can't trust. It's the GIRLS i cannot trust. Nothing else to say alr. Take a bath & watch vcds with Jann. :D Saturday, September 15, 2007
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 Today was hella spastic-ness.It's like UNCONTROLLABLE CRAZINESS. God knows why? You get so high doing stupid stuff. And end up laughing at your own self. But seriously, i enjoyed my day today. :D I DO NOT REGRET GOING OUT WITH MY LADIES TODAY!. Am i right Amelia?? I knw we made a fool of ourselves today. But, who cares?? We don't, like do this everyday, huh? It's hella fun, man. :D See?? We had so much fun, without even spending money. :D We should, seriously do this more often. When's the stayover, girls?? I'm like, gonner rot for a month. :/ I wanna go Sentosa. Going out with you girls can make me go crazy. Suddenly thinks of this conversation.... "Are you allergic to nuts"? "No, i'm nuts". What the hell? That's seriously funny luh. Claudear, go be a comedian can. I'll definitely support you, by watching your shows. Anyhow, let's crash Nassa's and Ame's classes one day ohkay? If not, my life's gonner be life-less. :/ I really hope you can go Thailand with us. If not, it'll be oh so boring. I knw it's kinda sudden. But then, my brudder haven even got the tics yet. So there's still time. :D We can go shopping and stuff. I seriously want to do my nails. It's fugly shit luh. :/ Feeling oh so tired. from all that laughing and all. Anyhow, i had a fun day today. :D And, boy am i glad. Friday, September 14, 2007
Girl talk •
 I'm free!finally. I feel so good. So damn good. Now, the thing is... I'll be damn bored now luh. :/ I so need to go out with my friends now can. I've been really busy with my attachment. And now, i'm finally over it. Anyhow, i just called them. And then, they said they are money-less. :/ I'm so disheartened now can? Well, i'd guess i gotta wait till jas ends hers. And we'll prolly shop till we drop. But, i think i'll prolly spend all the moolah before i even knw it. :/ $450 aye. Who don't wanna spend it?? Actually the extra $300 is my savings. I'm so gonner buy that Queens Couture jeans. Definitely more clothes from f21. and more shoes from Aldo, Topshop, etc. I sound like a crazy bitch who has never gone shopping for so long. I have some facts on plastic surgery. It's really tempting, you knw? I don't mind spending all the money i have in the world, just to be pretty. Aye, being pretty aint that easy. You must have what it takes to be one. If you go buy fishball noodles, the uncle will give you an extra fishball, you want his left toe also he will confirm give to you... Suddenly, all the clothes you wear will look like they are very chio, wave for taxi only all the uncles will rush to pick you up... No, forget taxis - chio girls get cars as presents! I really want to go for a plastic surgery. If you become that hot, your entire life will change can? However, your intergrity still stays the same. No natural beauty. FAKE, FAKE, FAKE. Fake nose. Fake tits. Everything fake. What the hell?! I don't want that, man. I'd rather thank God for being a fortunate girl who has 2 hands, 2 eyes, 1 mouth, 2 legs, blah blah blah... That's counted a blessing. Don't knw why soo many girls say they're fat when they're skinny as a bean pole? I don't get it at all. Is that considered an eating disorder or wadd?? Be glad that you're skinny. But, be careful. You don't want to be ike those kiddos in Africa. Starving their stomach like nobody's business. Freaking skinny. Plus maggots in their tummy. Final morale. Don't eat meat. And you won't be fat. Thursday, September 13, 2007
A blessing in disguise. •
 What a blessing in disguise.Firstly, i was late for work. Secondly, i had to work an extra 1 and a half hour to make it up. :/ Thirdly, it's my brother's engagement today, and i couldn't make it. Lastly, my brother intends to bring us to Thailand again. However, after work; my brother fetched me from work; brought me clothes to change. And the 4of us headed to Takashimaya to look for Mooncakes to give to his clients. And i saw snow skin mooncakes! God, i love them. I wonder why don't they let us try their snow skin mooncakes. So stingy. Mei said it's becos it needs to be kept in a cold temperature. :/ Isn't the air-conditioner on alr? Whatever. I just love snow skin mooncakes. You buy me those, and i'll be your friend. *Erm.. if you think it's so easy to be my friend? dream on then. We then went to VivoCity. As we wanted to shop at Topshop & F21. :D I bought two blouses + bangles. And i just love those blouses, man. Really can't wait to wear it, and flaunt it. Oh God, i'm such a bitch. Wednesday, September 12, 2007
i'm fagged out right now •
 Lethargic.Prostrated. Exasperated. Haggard. Fagged. That's apparently how i'd feel. :/ Just 2more days left, i knw. Lord, please give me the strength i need. Missing them so much. But, i'm at a state where i cannot do anything about it. And this feeling sucks. I had a wonderfool day with him ytd. He's always making me happy when i'm worn out. He's just the one who's there for me when i'm down. Now, he's got a psp. There goes our time together. :/ I wanna watch no reservations featuring Catherine Zeta-Jones. I think she's simply gorgeous. Oh well, i hope i can catch it soon. :D Monday, September 10, 2007
try this out! •
I got this from claudear's blog.Thought it may be fun, so i tried. And this is the result. :D Taurus + Pisces The sign of Pisces falls in the friendship area of the Sun sign of Taurus. The Pisces–Taurus connection is predominantly one of companionship and social activity. Pisces tends to be far more spiritual and idealistic than you, with your practical ‘must touch and see to believe’ nature. They will have to prove that they can balance what’s possible with what’s real if they’re going to cut it with you. Having said that, you will still feel attracted to the Pisces energy. Perhaps the watery sign will drip, drip, drip on your emotions and slowly break down your scepticism. Pisces could teach you important karmic life lessons about believing in things you can’t see — you may learn about faith, and about trust in a higher being. You have lessons to teach Pisces as well. You can show them the value of balancing their spiritual life with their practical day-to-day existence. Both sides may find these lessons tough at first, but it is worth persisting — there is much you can learn from each other. You, Taurus, are extremely straightforward, extremely ‘black and white’ in many ways. Being with you is a very unusual experience for Pisces. They like to absorb many different emotional and spiritual colours. Pisces wants to go deep — to get to the heart of the mystery of life and nature — whereas are often quite content with the routineness of your existence. You like to know from day to day where everything is and what you can expect around the next corner. You can have a great meeting of heart and mind with Pisces born between 19 February and 28/29 February. They are supreme idealists, and see the whole world through rose-coloured glasses. However, you may find yourself at odds with them sometimes because they are not terribly practical. Pisces born between 1 March and 10 March are not quite as compatible with you. They are very sensitive and emotional; this will look wishy-washy to you. You need strength and decisiveness. Some people born around this time have extraordinary psychic and intuitive abilities. This may interest you initially, but their lack of practicality is likely to see you lose interest soon. Mars and Pluto make those born between 11 March and 20 March hot and very intense. You’ll be seduced by their emotional responses. They are strong, silent and deep — but also demanding. Unless you’re prepared to compromise, this could be a dizzy ride of highs and lows. Somehow, i think this is so true. But it may be just my own personal thinking. :D Go try it out at http://www.astrology.com.au/compatibility/index/asp baby, i will wait for you. •
 Monday it is.Come on, just 4more days. No biggie right?? You gotta pull through this with no difficulty. 2weeks have passed in a blink of an eye. So another 4more days shouldn't be that tough huh? Supposedly, planned to go out shopping todayy. But, as everyone in the house were feeling drastically tired. My bro decided to postpone it to tmr. Oh how great, I'd be meeting samm tmr after work. So, I'd guess tmr aint a perfect idea at all. :/ And on Wednesday, I'll prolly end work at 9pm. So, we'll most prolly postpone this to Thursday. I'm really so tired can? I wanna go shopping can? My hands are starting to itch again can? When will this ever end?? :/ I miss late nights spent with you. I miss late night talking. I just miss everything about you. Everything that i do reminds me of you. Do you understand? Somehow, i hate this kind of feeling. A feeling of insecurity and loneliness. It makes me feel like our relationship is on a thin thread, that is going to break any minute. I just want to spend the rest of my life with you by my side. Is that even possible? I don't want this to go on any further. For, this isn't what i want. I just don't want to be that girl you met in the streets. I want to be that special girl in your heart. Saturday, September 08, 2007
When you're gone, the pieces of my heart are missing you. •
 It's a Saturdayy.And i'm exhausted. What a day. As usual, didn't see him today. Dunno what's going on between us. One minute, we had all the plans decided. And the other minute, everything is ruined. I knw he's tired. He just don't have the energy for me. I've done everything i could, to make him skip work today. But, none of them worked. :/ It seems his motivation to go to work is so strong. It's the very first time, that he's so enthusiastic. I don't even see him so motivated to go for school remedial. Maybe, i could no longer control him like i did. He smokes, i can't stop him. He works, i can't stop him either. :/ What should i do?? I'm wanting him to be wanting me. But, it just won't work out fine. I'm only free on the weekends. I have to work on weekdays, doesn't he understand? That i want to spend an entire day with him alone?? I really do not know. I'm so confused. Somehow, i knw this is going nowhere. Who knows? We won't last forever. i need you right now, baby •
 Finally pulled through the weekend.Tho i'm drastically tired, i can say that i've enjoyed my time in Alexandra Hospital. :D Some of the nurses there are nice, but, the patients are EXTRA-nice to me. Thought they may look down on me as i'm ONLY a student nurse. But, they're fine. :D In fact, the patients are my friends now. I talk to them, and listen to their story of life. I think it's really interesting, you know. Now, i'm LOOKING FORWARD to afternoon shifts. *hahah. As i'd be able to intereact with them. :D I think God is making look on the brighter side of life. So that i won't hate afternoon shifts anymore. *hees. Thank You God. I haven't seen samm for like... 2days. :( It really seems so long. God knows why. I'm really loving this job. :D It's fun, tho it's tiring. But, it helps me to lose weight too. Walking and running up and down the ward is really tiring, man. I miss Jasmine. I'd really like to meet up with her and catch up the good'ol times. But, unfortunately, she's working. :( Please call me when you're free, girl. I wanna go shopping. :D I've got moolah. *hahah. Is $150 alot?? I really don't know. *hahah. What should i buy? I want that 'queens couture' jeans. I want that 'prima' shoes. I want that pair of white shoes. I want that Motorola phone. I want so many things. :/ Am i asking too much? I don't wanna be a 'high maintenance' girl. I guess i already am. :/ What can i do, man. I'm totally clueless. Thursday, September 06, 2007
I hate you so much •
 Why is life like that?Why must this happen? Why can't life be much better? Are you jealous or what? Does breaking us up make you happy? Quarrels are normal. Why must you make it sound so ridiculous? Just because of the little things he do, that makes you unhappy, Still, why must you hate him? Do you know i love him? Do you even know? Who was there for me when my mom passed away? Who was there for me when i lost my way? It was him. Only him, i could depend on. Still, you keep finding faults about him. This is so unfair to me. Have i ever stopped you from loving someone? No, for i know what love is. It's happiness when you're with him. It's unexplainable. I know you care, but this is OUTRAGEOUS! Stopping me from loving someone is stupid. You remind me of the ancient times, when parents have to force their daughters to marry some rich kid. But, this is the 21st century, mister. If not for her, i wouldn't have found out about this. I'm damn pissed right now. Thought this only happens on tv. Fuck. This is oh so dramatic. I hate this. If this really happens, stopping him from seeing me. You'll never see me again. Period. I do not care what you feel or what you say. He is part of my life. Nobody/no one can ever break us apart. Not even you. Everyone makes mistakes. He didn't do it on purpose. You think he doesn't want to return it to you. He does. But, could he? He only gets a few hundred bucks every month. And, to make me happy, he'll bring me out for an exclusive dinner, plus shopping with my friends. How do you think i can even buy my clothes? He understands me. Do you? You said you want me to be happy. But, your actions isn't following what you preached. I'm freaking tired. And you are not only helping, but adding more burden to me. I thought i could tell you everything, thought i could confide in you. But, i can't anymore. To think you even said you had been tolerating for so long. WTF? No respect for you? You think we purposely quarrelled when you're home? You think we like quarrelling? You think i like crying and screaming on the phone? If that's what you think, I've got nothing else to say. Thanks to you, I'll be having sleepless nights once again. Wednesday, September 05, 2007
thank you baby, for making me the happiest girl again. •
 9more days left. :/Is that considered long or wadd? Somehow, i am not enjoying this. This friend of mine whom i just knew is simply over-religious. And it really freaks me out, way out. I knw everyone is different. But, she seems to be flaunting to me that she's prestigious or something. And it's so damn irritating. I thought she was merely following her Islamic rules. But, she goes on saying that. "Humans are like machines, they have their manuals to work it. While human manuals are perhaps, the bible or the Islamic book." *Huh? Please talk english to me. I knw that with the bible, it helps us to be a better person. But, i think she's really overdoing it. Seriously. I think we should just live the life we want it, for we only get to live ONCE. *Ugh She's fucking irritating luh. She's 18, yet she behaves like a 15year old. She even said that as long as she prayed and ask for a right husband, she'll find one, and without any dating, she's gonner marry him. *huh? How do you even know him better?? I'm really so fucked up, that it's better if i change the topic. 9more days of tolerance and it'll be gone. After my work, Sam came and brought me out fer lunch at West Mall. We had Sakae Sushi. *Yummy We walked ard and decided to head home, as the both of us were freaking tired. *went grocery shopping with my siblings. :D And we bought a hella stuff. And i'm so happy. With glee. :) |
