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Reality ain't exactly my forte Neither is anything else for that matter. Tuesday, July 31, 2007
life's like that. •
![]() Although it's kinda messy; but it's a really beautiful picture. And i simply love it so much. It's a pity that my cell is lousy; if not dis would be my background picture. Well, it's march, me, sharifah and hidayah. taken right before MIC lecture. *beams I'm glad that jasmine have recovered from her fever; Ohh yeah, my prayers did work. Plus, my baby's alot better too. It's my practical test tmr. You guys gotta give me strength. I'll seriously get a panic attack or maybe a nervous breakdown. *UGH!! really looking forward to 22nd Aug. Ohhh...i just found out that Ngee Ann is having this Voxy Nails thingy; and the prices are so reasonable! French manicure-$6 Express manicure-$5 Classic manicure-$7 Ooohhh! It's so damn tempting lah. But, unfortunately; i've cut my nails short for this bloody practical. what the fuck. Oh well, it starts on 3rd Aug anyway. And it's held at Atrium. I really wanna do my pretty, lovely nails. Anw, samm said they weren't pros; as the previous time i did french, and i costed me $16 and now it's only $6! what the hell. i feel so cheated. I don't feel like studying right now. The time just isn't right. I hate stress. It kills my brain cells and my blood vessels. hahah, what crap?! Well well well, what can i say? My bf's a lamer. I miss the two hour break on friday. I miss the grape yoghurt with pearl. I miss jasmine giving me the lame face. I'm feeling so tired, yet so energetic. He's gonner start work tmr, and i doubt there'll be any more spending time with him. Anw, our exams are around the corner, and we gotta study. I know he will study no matter how tired he is. For he's an optimistic guy; who will always do his duties right. Jasmine won't be going to school tmr again. *sighs And school's really boring without her. And it's damn quiet too. i miss her. Monday, July 30, 2007
Monday blues •
What a sad day. Both baby and jasmine are sick. Samm's got the severe headache for the past few weeks; Jas's got the fever, gastritis, etc. I'm all alone right now. Well, there's still marchy and hidayah. Cheer up Eunice. Everything will be fine in a day's time. Hmmm, jasmine won't be going to school tmr; that leaves me, marchy, hidayah, zara and fiona. *sighs School's gonner be a real bore without jasmine. Well, i had a great day with samm today. He was supposed to fetch me from school, but as he ain't feeling quite well, i went to find him instead. We had dinner, and i headed home. And the thing is, i left my ring at his house; and i feel so damn insecure without it mann. *sighs Anw, he'll be starting work soon. That means no more spending of time together. Exams are really stressing me down these days. I'm starting to have a headache alr. Hmmm, my bro just started this catering service thingy, for us to eat in case he aint in Singapore, and the food is somehow satisfying. Well, do i have any other options?? Ohh yeah, i wanna watch the simpsons movie. Anybody watching it, please call me along too. Puh-leeze?? Or maybe he will watch it with me. Sunday, July 29, 2007
There's gotta be more to life. •
With more crap and even more crap! Well, blogger's been a lousy one these days. Dunno wads with their maintenance thingy. I couldn't see my blog. Ohkay, in simple terms, it disapperared. Just like that. Well, Samm's been a really nice guy these days; staying over my house and stuff. THANKS BABY! been studying these days, and so is he. So we studied together today, we felt sleepy, and we fell asleep. And now, he's still sleeping. He's a pig. What can i say? Hmmm, practical's like in a week's time.. and i'm freaking scared. UGH! Hate muh uniform. GOOD LUCK TO JASMINE! She's having her NSL practical test tmr. i'M already starting to feel nervous. And i'm always the last one. *sighs Can't wait fer 23rd Aug; we'll be going SHOPPING! *WOOTS Shopping really heals my wounds. It really perks up my day. And making everyone's life alot better. Oh yes, i gotta find something for my mei's birthday. It's still late. But i gotta think of something special for her. As she's my one and only sister. Wednesday, July 25, 2007
how i wish... •
![]() I'm so STRESSED! Damn worried bout my modules. I hate August. Thought polylife was so much more relaxed and all. All bullshit. I miss sec school times. I prefer those times. I'm just so tired, so tired. I want a break from all this. Like what baby said, just a break from everything. I think i totally feel him I've been waking up at 645am these days. And it's really killing me. I need sleep, really do. I've got my skinnies alr; and i've also got my small slingbag! I should be happy. But i'm just not feeling the way i should. Am i suffering from depression? I hope i do; and i can take a long break; just an escapade from here, just the two of us. Tuesday, July 24, 2007
POOR MEIMEI •
Oooh! Don't you just love tuesdays? I just had muh nails done. And gawd i love it! It's french; and ALL THANKS TO BABY! He paid for it. Well, it was a perfect day for us; somehow, it feels like valentines' day. Can't help it when somebody is in love. Exams are in three weeks time; so i gotta study, guess i won't be blogging much these days. fuck, there's a microbiology laboratory re-test tmr, and i haven't study yet! gawd dammit! Jasmine & i are gonner collect our skinnies tmr at far east. YIPPEE! MY SKINNIES! Ohh yes, this anonymous passerby comented on my sis's blog and called her a slut. WTH?! If someone dare to do this, they should at least dare to put their name down. My poor sis is damn sad right now. FUCK THAT PASSERBY. Say her flirt with so many guys, that passerby is just jealous that my sis have so many guy-friends. HMMPH! I JUST CAN'T HELP SEEING MY SIS GETTING BULLIED. NO ONE BULLIES MY SISTER, EXCEPT ME! Sunday, July 22, 2007
Love is PERFECT. •
Brought Mr Scoobs to grooming. And now he look damn awful. I know that's mean; well, i'm a mean girl. What can you say?? He's lost his manhood; his "face", and to prove he's still a man, he has to masturbate. right in front of me. Stupid dog. Went to IKEA in the afternoon, and i bought these stuff: A flower night light A study table A fan A bulletin board And everything is done. ALL THANKS TO MY BRO. All that drilling and hammering. I'm surprised. Imagine my sis and i doing it. We'll take years just to drill four holes. Ohkay, that sounds exaggerating. Well, i gotta exaggerate a lil to make life more interesting. I think i'm so lame. -_- WHO CARES?! Better than that desmond guy in school. "I'VE BEEN LAME FOR SO MANY YEARS, AND NOW I CAN WALK." OMFG?! WHO THE HELL WILL SAY THAT??! he's a crapper. a freak indeed. Well, hopefully, my cough is recovering already. And jasmine won't have to bear with the weird pitch my voice makes. Sweetie was so sweet last night; i accompanied him till break of dawn, about 4-5am in the morning. and he went home after all the chating and all. SORRY BABY, IF I WAS RUDE. i just wanted more time for us. Hope i will be seeing you tonight again. Will be having Pizza Hut fer dinner. YIPPEE! CURRY CHICKEN PIZZA! *DROOLS. Saturday, July 21, 2007
baby, come back to me. •
it's a saturday; and it's the most boring day. saw my daddy just now; didn't see him for so long. maybe he's having the time of his life right now. i don't give a shit. i'm happy with my life right now. i have a really great boyfriend; and super great girlfriends. what's there for me to worry? this is the life i wanted in the past. and now, i've got it. my baby's so busy with his work and school stuff; somehow i just don't want to add on to his problems. i don't want to be his burden. Not at all. he's afraid to lose me; and so do i. day by day,the gap between us is drifting apart, but our hearts are still linked as one. and i know, no matter how busy he may be, i am still on his mind everyday, for i am still the only girl in his heart; eversince the day we met. i miss you baby. when will you come back to me; and say "baby, i'm all yours now." Friday, July 20, 2007
THANKS TO YOU MY GIRLS; •
Tao pok! Emo kids. OOPS!! Had a wonderfool gathering at Rp today; met ame, nassa, lyna, claudear and renee. Lovely isn't it? We laughed, we screamed, we did every crazy stuff we could ever think of in this world. and we became cam whores. took so many photos. will update them later once ame send me those spastic pics of me. hahah. dunno why;i can really go wild with them around. And one funny thing happened when nassa and i were otw to the bukit batok interchange, this 2 guys approached us, obviously he wanted to promote something late in the night. So i basically walked off, and turned on my volume in my ipod. however, poor nassa was alr "captured" by them, so i had to "save" her, so i stopped and turned back to "save" her. and they started off by pretending to give us tissues as they had extras. nassa and i were like saying "what do you want?" in a very nice tone, and they said we were ah lians and all. CRAP! we are "kuai" girls ohkay?? No drinking, no clubbing for us. and the guys started calling me"the sexiest girl alive" as i was obviously wearing a shirt which says it. BLAH BLAH BLAH... They talked non-stop, basically wasting their time, as they wanted us to do a survey, but i alr did and the main point was they wasnted us to save $$. which is impossible for nassa and i. hahah. cos we always go shopping, and nassa has alr spent ther $$ for this month. so i was "using' them for my entertainment, as my bus 77 haven't come yet. hahah. Well, they really are interesting peeps. Maybe after one whole day of standing, they needed some entertainment, hence they were so jovial and friendly. Well, they made me laugh when i was feeling damn tired, so i think these people ought to get some compliments. hahah. although they were basically "entertainment" to me while waiting for the bus, hahah. OHH yeahh. Next Sat 28th July, I'll be having a housewarming party. And i really hope my friends would be able to "click". i really like you guys to meet my friends so badly, *sighs Why no one understands me?? I know it's gonner be tough; but i just hope and pray that things will go perfectly okay. Thursday, July 19, 2007
LOVELY THURSDAY. •
Great shopping indeed, right jasmine? Still dare to shop wit da shopping queen? hahah. I've bought: a wallet black skinnies white denim skirt red pumps white beach bag And guess how much i spent?? Total: $130.70 I think this is normal when you do this once a month. Well, i had a great time with you jasmine. THANKS! We've got similar jeans, shoes, cardigans and skirts. Maybe our taste are just the same. Ohh yes, and about that housewarming party, it is on Saturday, 28th july. hope you guys can make it. THANKS BABY FOR THE 70 BUCKS! LOVE YA. Wednesday, July 18, 2007
You can make me whole again •
IT'S FUCKING PAINFOOL! Was so emofied in school today, spent only 4 hours in school and headed home to sleep. Sorry guys, if i was being rude or anything, i'm just having the period of the month. And it's the worst thing ever. Let's hope this freaking cramp will go away, and i can continue with my shopping spree tomorrow. `kor's finally back from thailand, this house was dead for a moment, and it's alive again. I wanna go to that STARCRUISE! As long as it's an escapade outta here. I'm listening to MTV hits and blogging right here. Everyone adores MTV. So do i. TO: MY DEAR CLAUDIA, YOUR BLOGSKINS ARE NICE TOO! :D And i really wanna watch that Harry Potter show! Everyone's watched already, except me! And i missed this week's Desperate Housewives. Dammit! My friends make me smile, if only for awhile, you can make me whole again. Looking back from where we first met, i cannot escape and i cannot forget, baby you're the one who used to turn me on you can make me whole again. Tuesday, July 17, 2007
how do i live without you? •
![]() Life without you is unbearable; THANKS FOR SPENDING THE NIGHT WITH ME BABY. I had a great dinner made by you. How i wish this could happen everyday. UGH! Tomorrow's my presentation for Psychology & Sociology. I hate presenting. Damn embarrasing lah! And my voice ain't exactly recovered back yet. *SIGHS Sam's snoring the night away, If only i could be like that too, I'm so damn tired. TO: JASMINE Somehow i can't upload the photo we took during MIC, Maybe it's too big or something, why don't you try uploading on your blog? THANKS FOR THE SKIRT! Monday, July 16, 2007
thank you baby, for making me the happiest girl again. •
Monday blues are here, dammit; anatomy and physiology tutorial starts at 8am tmr, and it isn't really the ideal lesson to start early in the morning. Looking forward to thursday; going to far east shopping! YAY! it's been two days since i saw him, and it seems like two years for goodness sake! it'so exaggerating. yet so true. He said i was extra sweet to him today, well, i'm having a sore throat and cough, that's why. No shouting and yelling. hahah. Just kidding baby, i'm always sweet. hahah. Someone's puking already. Well, the Macdonald's guy is here already. Gonner have my dinner now. i loved you like i never loved anyone before •
Just came back from suntec city; claudear's teenage icon thingy, damn tired right now, don't even feel like writing now, but i just don't know why my heart wants to. I miss him so much, and missing him makes me cry. I don't know what to do baby, this can't go on like this forever. Things got to change baby, life's like that. Not the way you want it. i loved the last call i had with you, it was sweet and nice; and it made me cry, i had never talked to you over the phone for more than a minute for so long, and i really miss that. i really don't want to push you down baby, i know you have your own difficulties, maybe i'm just not used to the life i'm living in right now. Saturday, July 14, 2007
It's all about us. •
![]() - Perfect day, Perfect weather, Perfect place, Perfect stay, Perfect time, It was all but a perfect moment. - Sam was here at seven. I was still in my dreams, so i didn't let him in. My sis did so. Tired as we could be, we just wanted each other badly; by our side. No matter many conflicts we had, no matter many arguments we had, nothing will ever tear us apart. That came after 4 years. 4 years. To them, it may be pretty amazing, but to me, it's about compromising to one another. In times when i'm blue, i think about the times, and i'd call myself a wonder woman Controlling a guy's heart is tough, but you gotta learn how to do it, without any learning. However, there may be some setbacks, but, fret not, for tomorrow will be a better day. *To Jasmine & March: I guess i won't be watching Harry Potter with you guys, Sam decided to watch it with me. So, i helped you guys save money.hahah. Just kidding, i feel kinda guilty about it. Friday, July 13, 2007
My life is loveless •
Why is loving someone so damn difficult? I don't get it at all. I'm just so frustrated; All i want is to hear his voice, that simple, yet so difficult I'm so busy with all the projects coming up and most of them are due by Monday. *yawns heard that i haven't been debarred from mic yet. *phew gonner stay up late and wait for him, maybe till 4am in the morning; and I'm sick, having a very dry cough, and it's getting me a bad sore throat. I'm being neglected both by my sis and my boyfriend, supposed to meet my sis for dinner at west mall, but who knows? she went out with her friends to watch Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. and obviously, wont be back for dinner. UGH. OH YES, my dear jasmine, please remember to bring the skirt and the pants on Monday. I hope you'll see this. Well, can't find my camera at the moment, so i can't take a picture of my mobile for you. Well, i think it's nice la.hahah. THANKS TO MARCH & JASMINE, saying that they'd watch Harry Potter again with me, I'm sorry ohkay? if you guys don't want to, i can always find someone else.hahah. i feel so guilty making you guys do this. But, thanks again. :D Thursday, July 12, 2007
What a motherfucker. •
I hate her, that fugly bitch. It's just slippers; ALL THANKS to her, i have to retake my module. She's an ***hole. A motherfucker. March & i just left the lab, and went home. I hate this day, 12th July 2007 First, my slippers were manifested by ants. i freaked out. Missed the bus. Hence, i was late when i met jas & hidayah. Luckily Dr ron hadn't start the lecture yet. Wow, what else can go wrong now? Didn't even felt like going for mic practical, as we didn't have lunch break. And in the end, we got somewhat chased out of lab, as we were wearing slippers. The lady even asked us to rent shoes and buy socks! Just to go for my practical?? That's so irrelevant! Is she outta her mind?! Who will do that? Only crazy people like xiao fung. It's so dumb. Warning: Her mind is totally screwed up right now, you may take the risk to try and please her, if you dare. Had dinner with aaron and mei at beautyworld. met samm finally, although it was a short while; i'm alr on cloud 9. feeling sick of my life, hoping that tmr will be a better day. Wednesday, July 11, 2007
My name •
A: Addicted to sex B: Likes people C: Is wild and crazy D: Has one of the best personalities ever E: Is a damn good kisser F: People adore you G: Never let people tell you what to do H: Has a very good personality and looks I: Is always there for his/her friends J: Lives life for fun K: A big tease L: Loved by everyone M: Makes dating fun N: Best in bed O: Dead sexy P: Popular with all types of people Q: A hypocrite R: Likes to flirt S: Easy to fall in love with T: Crazy/hyper U: Really likes to chill V: Not judgemental W: Very broad minded X: Never let people tell you what to do Y: Always a good boyfriend/girlfriend Z: Always ready E: Is a damn good kisser U: Really likes to chill N: Best in bed I: Is always there for his/her friends C: Is wild and crazy E: Is a damn good kisser W: Very broad minded E: Is a damn good kisser E: Is a damn good kisser H: Has a very good personality and goods U: Really likes to chill A: Addicted to sex Is it so hard?? •
Is it simply so hard for guys to commit? just to commit to their girls; and give them a sense of security? I just don't get it, i even had a nightmare about it. Crap! My loot at bugis was huge today.hahah. Bought lipstick, make up remover, a top, bangles. THANKS BABY! had mic remedial today, and the freaking lecturer is freaking gay! *pukes Wactched transformers with him yesterday, it was a really touching show, THUMBS UP! I love it! ;and i wanna watch it again.hahah. i seriously don't mind. After spending almost the entire day with him, i doubt i'll be seeing him the next few days. Well, gotta cheer up. Life still has to carry on, am i right jasmine??hahah. Well, these days had been real fun with her around. We can joke and laugh about everything. Well, we like to make a scene.hahah. THANKS JAS! i had fun :D Monday, July 09, 2007
Is it just me, or what?? •
Highlight of the day: I got molested in the bus this morning. As it was a monday morning, it was packed as usual, everyone sqeezing each another in the bus. Then i felt a hand touching my ass. It hit me 3 times, i turned around and saw this old man. I scolded him a fucker. Somehow, i feel that it's my fault for wearing a low cut jeans. *sighs So i'm not gonner wear jeans anymore, i'm sticking to skirts from now on. *hmmph! I'm starting to detest old men. They are disgusting horny jerks. YUCK! Glad that i could see my friends today, *woots I'm feeling so scared, Ms helen made an appointment with me tomorrow, and God knows why she did that. Somehow, i feel so insecure right now. And i need you by my side; that's all i need. Sunday, July 08, 2007
i love them lots •
![]() *stole this from ame's blog. thanks ame! it's a pic of nassa, kia hong, me and omar yesterday at Zack's party. It was fun, fun, fun! What a boring day today is. I better rest to the fullest before the ever so busy week starts. hahah. I'm looking forward to see my friends tmr. *woots! i love them lots! YEAH. Will be seeing sam in about 3 hours. Can't wait no more; i miss him so much. Somebody hit the lights, so we can rock it day and night. from am to pm. *sighs Aaron's here in my house with my sis. And i'm so damn bored. mei mei got boyfriend, don't want me already. i have such a good sister. and i love her so much. Saturday, July 07, 2007
Only YOU can make me feel, only YOU can take me there. •
![]() I just want you to love me; treat me with tender, loving, care. Is that so hard to accomplish? I used to be the happiest girl alive; but now, i'm like a broken-hearted girl. Friends are concerned about me, but they can't heal my wounds. Only YOU can. Only YOU can make me feel happier. Only YOU can make me sad. Only YOU. I miss you so; yet i feel like it's only me again. I called you, and you said i was irritating you. I hung up the cell. You said you needed rest; i gave you rest. You said you needed money; i let you work. I gave you everything; and even sacrificed myself, for not being able to spend time for you. Just to make you happy. For you i will do anything. I ask myself, am i doing too much? I really don't know. I just want to be that girl in your heart. Friday, July 06, 2007
i'm too sexy for my love •
Screw you! finally my attachment is over, yet no one's happy for me. WTH?! i wanted a celebration. hahah. i'm just bushed after these two weeks. and all i want is relaxation; not stress and noise. just done my manicure & pedicure. total=$57.90 it's been such a long time; since i pampered myself. hahah. samm's coming over at 3am after work, doubt i can be able to stay up and wait for him; i hope i won't doze off, as i have something important to tell him. i miss him so, and i wanna watch transformers with him. *sighs ohh well, tmr's zack's birthday, so i'll be able to see my friends. hell yeahh! *woots! i really miss those times, those secondary school times, we had fun, we had joy, I don't understand at all. Why must it always be me me me?? Why must i keep on giving? I'm sick and tired of giving all my love to you. And you treat me the other way round. Is this fair for me?? I've said so much, did you even bother to do anything at all?? i know you're loving and nice, even people think that way, but what happened to that ever so romantic guy i knew?? it just "pop" and disappeared into thin air. I simply hate the way you treat me. Why can't you speak gently to me instead of whining?? Just say, "baby, my big boss is here, can i call you back later?" Is that so difficult?? You are always hurting me without even knowing that. You're just clueless about it. Why can't you give me some of your love too?? I've given too much, and now i'm really sick and tired. it's your turn now baby. Thursday, July 05, 2007
WILL YOU DANCE WITH ME IN THE MOONLIGHT? •
![]() *WOOTS! Damn tired after two weeks of clinical attachment. i even missed my all-time favourite show! DESPERATE HOUSEWIVES! Luckily, i recorded it alr. *sighs Clinical attachment is damn boring; esp in JURONG POLYCLINIC! I'm not even paid at all. WTH? I heard woodlands polyclinic is offering $10/day. $50 bucks for five days! that's worth the energy i've lost during this week. boring. Carn wait to do my nails on saturdayy! gonner watch desperate housewives now; TA TA! Wednesday, July 04, 2007
OMFG?! •
![]() Ohkay, i gotta be positive. just ended att at jurong polyclinic. damn tired as usual. saw march yesterday at the Gallery of memories in bukit batok polyclinic. has so much fun laughing and all. p17 are really fun people. although they are the world's greatest slacker. hahah. they're nice peeps. tmr's my presentation on children immunisation. Ugh! damn scared. hope my group will do well. i passed my post-GOM-test. *phew he didn't go to school today. he went to work instead, as he woke up late. hopefullly, i will see him tmr. Oh yeahh, guess what?? saw a young girl who is around my age, holding a baby in her arms. OMG!? SO YOUNG??? she said her boyfriend left her, and she intends to keep the baby, with her mum's support. Fyi, she's still studying in poly. I was flabbergasted when i saw this. To all girls out there; don't be stupid to get yourself pregnant, thinking that your loving boyfriend will go through all these with you; it's all bullshit! i've seen it all. i have heard many rumours. and i didn't believe myself till today. it seems like she had a younger baby sister to me. if i were the girl, i won't want to keep the baby; i'd either force myself to miscarriage, or send the baby to the orphanage. i hope there are girls who are smart enough to choose the right thing. |